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"You are still a victim. It is time to become a survivor."
as I said these words tonight, I realized that sometimes, I'm still victimizing myself too.
I'm still living my life in fear.
yes, part of it is the PTSD, but the other part is fear of moving on.
I'm afraid to define myself without my past occurances.
I performed "Lejos..." tonight for a moderate crowd and captivated them with every word.
Using a chair and blanket as my props, it went amazingly well.
I read "Crying Eyes" and almost doubled over in pain as thoughts rushed and tears flowed, but I made it through.
I made it through because it is my story.
The victim holds the story and now it's been released.
I am a survivor and I swear to you that I can keep going.
We can keep going.
as I said these words tonight, I realized that sometimes, I'm still victimizing myself too.
I'm still living my life in fear.
yes, part of it is the PTSD, but the other part is fear of moving on.
I'm afraid to define myself without my past occurances.
I performed "Lejos..." tonight for a moderate crowd and captivated them with every word.
Using a chair and blanket as my props, it went amazingly well.
I read "Crying Eyes" and almost doubled over in pain as thoughts rushed and tears flowed, but I made it through.
I made it through because it is my story.
The victim holds the story and now it's been released.
I am a survivor and I swear to you that I can keep going.
We can keep going.