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OK... After a very trying week I have decided that I have a few things that just need to be said to a bunch of different people.. so here goes.....
1. Fuck you for telling me I'm "not nice" no shit buddy.. I never pretended to be nice.. I am more then fully aware that I can be a bitch.. Do I feel bad about it? Not really.. Because 90% of the time if I am not nice to you there is a reason behind it.. I don't want to play your little games. And the people that I am close with.. even people that I just have meet, most of them would tell you that I am actually overwhelming nice and would bend over backwards for you... Take a hint.
2. If you are trying to get in touch with me, stop playing games and just do it... Nothing has changed, I still live in the same house, have the same home number and cell phone numbers.. I mean come on, I know I play coy sometimes but this is just getting freaking absurd.
3. Yes, you are right.. The ball is in my court.. I get to be "the decider" but.. that does not make this any easier... I feel so torn.. I know what I have to do, I know what I want to do , I know what is best for me or even best for you.. Still that doesn't make this any easier..
4. Love. the real deal, the feelings that you have for someone dont just go away the minute you break up.. heck, sometimes, even though you are obviously not "IN" love with a person you can still reflect with a fondness... You cannot turn it off.. If you could I am pretty sure that we would both be in better places... What this means is that, even with the conversations we have been having the past couple of days and the anger and the tears, for some reason we still continue the marry go round.. Should we?
5. ... and to continue on the fact that you would ask such a thing in the mist of a fight... makes me wonder, did you actually think you were going to get a straight answer... I mean, I know you wanted me to say yes.. and then you seemed so taken aback when I said I dont know... How did that surprise you?
1. Fuck you for telling me I'm "not nice" no shit buddy.. I never pretended to be nice.. I am more then fully aware that I can be a bitch.. Do I feel bad about it? Not really.. Because 90% of the time if I am not nice to you there is a reason behind it.. I don't want to play your little games. And the people that I am close with.. even people that I just have meet, most of them would tell you that I am actually overwhelming nice and would bend over backwards for you... Take a hint.
2. If you are trying to get in touch with me, stop playing games and just do it... Nothing has changed, I still live in the same house, have the same home number and cell phone numbers.. I mean come on, I know I play coy sometimes but this is just getting freaking absurd.
3. Yes, you are right.. The ball is in my court.. I get to be "the decider" but.. that does not make this any easier... I feel so torn.. I know what I have to do, I know what I want to do , I know what is best for me or even best for you.. Still that doesn't make this any easier..
4. Love. the real deal, the feelings that you have for someone dont just go away the minute you break up.. heck, sometimes, even though you are obviously not "IN" love with a person you can still reflect with a fondness... You cannot turn it off.. If you could I am pretty sure that we would both be in better places... What this means is that, even with the conversations we have been having the past couple of days and the anger and the tears, for some reason we still continue the marry go round.. Should we?
5. ... and to continue on the fact that you would ask such a thing in the mist of a fight... makes me wonder, did you actually think you were going to get a straight answer... I mean, I know you wanted me to say yes.. and then you seemed so taken aback when I said I dont know... How did that surprise you?