Long overdue
I am not sure who actually still sees and reads this. I haven't been to the livejournal site in forever. In a way, I sort of forgot that I even had access to it. But for the people that I can still read their entries, it was good to hear that you are doing well. And JoJo, I can't believe you got so old on me.
The purpose of this entry is not really to update you on where I am and what I am doing. It is an update that asks for forgiveness. I tell people all of the time "I will never say 'I am sorry' for something that I did anymore, because 'I'm sorry' is so many times such an empty phrase that people use." I will however ask for forgiveness.
I have had the time in the past month to really reflect upon my life. In the past four years, while working for the Church, I had the opportunity to help a lot of people. However, I have realized that throughout that time, I also hurt a lot of people. With cruel words or rash actions, I could sometimes be a force that was hard to deal with. Asking for forgiveness right now doesn't take away the pain that I may have caused. I see now though that I lived my life in a "Greg can never be wrong" way. I know now that Greg was wrong in a lot of ways. If you are one of the people that I have hurt, know that this is a genuine attempt to ask that you consider forgiveness.
I live my life now in a much different way. I have lost so many people that were so close to me. It was mostly by mistakes of my own. Today, I stand more alone than ever, with only a few people that I continue to stay in touch with. I am no longer involved with the Catholic Church, which is shocking to some people. However, I will tell you that I still have a strong faith in God, but I have lost my interest in a religion that no longer met my needs. It is odd to go from being 100% Catholic to not wanting much to do with that Church. That could change in time, but for now, that is where I stand.
Chances are that I probably won't see any of you ever again. Chances are that you have either already forgotten about me or will in a year or two. Amidst all of those chances though, I want people to know that the person that I am today is much different than who I was before. What I may have taught you was good, but I wasn't truly living up to all of the greatness that I taught about. That is another point that I ask for forgiveness . . . for those times that I was a huge hypocrite.
So, I tell you now that I wish you the best in life. May the Lord be with you in all that you do.
The purpose of this entry is not really to update you on where I am and what I am doing. It is an update that asks for forgiveness. I tell people all of the time "I will never say 'I am sorry' for something that I did anymore, because 'I'm sorry' is so many times such an empty phrase that people use." I will however ask for forgiveness.
I have had the time in the past month to really reflect upon my life. In the past four years, while working for the Church, I had the opportunity to help a lot of people. However, I have realized that throughout that time, I also hurt a lot of people. With cruel words or rash actions, I could sometimes be a force that was hard to deal with. Asking for forgiveness right now doesn't take away the pain that I may have caused. I see now though that I lived my life in a "Greg can never be wrong" way. I know now that Greg was wrong in a lot of ways. If you are one of the people that I have hurt, know that this is a genuine attempt to ask that you consider forgiveness.
I live my life now in a much different way. I have lost so many people that were so close to me. It was mostly by mistakes of my own. Today, I stand more alone than ever, with only a few people that I continue to stay in touch with. I am no longer involved with the Catholic Church, which is shocking to some people. However, I will tell you that I still have a strong faith in God, but I have lost my interest in a religion that no longer met my needs. It is odd to go from being 100% Catholic to not wanting much to do with that Church. That could change in time, but for now, that is where I stand.
Chances are that I probably won't see any of you ever again. Chances are that you have either already forgotten about me or will in a year or two. Amidst all of those chances though, I want people to know that the person that I am today is much different than who I was before. What I may have taught you was good, but I wasn't truly living up to all of the greatness that I taught about. That is another point that I ask for forgiveness . . . for those times that I was a huge hypocrite.
So, I tell you now that I wish you the best in life. May the Lord be with you in all that you do.