love
I am terrified. Is it so wrong?
There are times at which I want to smack myself for not treasuring every single moment that I am with you, for not remembering everytime that I am in your arms, for not being everything that I can be.
Then there are times at which I just wish to end it, because it scares me more than anything in my life ever has before. But then I realize how wrong it would be, and it would just end up hurting both of us even more; we love each other. I am so happy for once, but so scared. This is something that I have never quite experienced before, the feeling of having the only thing that you have ever wanted...but the overwhelming fear of losing it.
Trust; revealing everything that you are. putting my life in someone else's hands
why is it so hard? Is it just the fear that you might end up like him?
That I might lose all that I am?
Sometimes I don't understand myself.
I want to open up to you, to let you into my life all the way.
To tell you everything about me, from my head to my toes, to the interworkings of my mind, to the depths of my heart.
But I wont. I am suffocating myself in my own fear.
Sometimes I feel so obsolete around you.
You're so amazing, so perfect in so many ways.
and I feel so undeserving of such an amazing person.
how could someone like you, love someone like me?
I wish I understood this.
I love you with every ounce of my being, and always will.
Just dont let me go.
You are my world.
