Lurking around
I removed several LJ friends last night, but do not be alarmed or offended please.
There simply isn't much to be seen from me here anymore.
I'm not abandoning my LJ, but I don't really want to spend time typing up long-winded entries like I used to.
I've been feeling overwhelmingly insecure and paranoid lately. Multiple times I've typed up an entry only to erase it all after getting through whatever emotional state I was in.
In the past, I used to share EVERYTHING, say just about everything on my mind from the mundane to some pretty damn embarrassing, private things. Well, now....I worry that even posting about my experiences day-to-day might give off the wrong impressions.
Nobody has said anything to me to spark this and this is all my twisted perception I'm feeling towards myself lately.
I'm trying to find my way back to happiness and the path I'm going down is frightening at times, but everything that has been happening in my life is positive so far.
A little over two weeks ago I traded in my 1991 Honda Accord to finance a 2009 Chevy Cobalt LT. I was approved by ONE bank, despite how high my credit score is and I'm stunned I got the one chance I needed. The dealership said my gross income was a little low, but they would see if I could get financing and after waiting a while the finance manager walked up to me to shake my hand in congratulations.
It was very hard for me to part with the Honda - it's been in my life for 10 years, but the sudden repairs required were too much for me to afford.
The Cobalt is a very nice car. I love the color and I feel like I'm truly living in the 21st century vehicle-wise. Air conditioning? Working power windows? Key-less entry? Remote start? Audio input for my mp3 player? Motha-flippin' Bluetooth speaker in the ceiling.
I'm still going to lurk around in the background, reading communities and friend's entries.
This only applies to Livejournal.
..haha...I totally tricked myself in to posting a entry longer than I had intended. rofl.... :E