bad day
i wanna cry out loud. i felt so last year. i am afraid of new changes in my life. i don't want anybody to go missing or lose someone. i love them all. i miss them all. i am afraid. i am terrified. i hate bidding apart. i hate saying goodbye's. i hate doing the things i don't like. i hate not to acknowledge who am i. i hate those throwing paper basket. i hate missing my family and friends so much. i hate this exam schedules. i hate this break. i hate to part. and most of all i hate night mares.
i hate this obviously. not long ago i was like chatting with nunny. i proudly told her i didn't had any bad dreams or night mares before. and was like i got it yesterday. i ponder over it. i'm scared and i don't know what to say. i feel like teling nunny. but she's way off to busy with all the things that had creepd her. there's like a certain boundaries i don't wanna cross over. i don't feel like this before. or perhaps time does affect everysingle thing. and i can no longer be there to froze the time.
i don't know. i am afraid and i feel like ending this world right now. of course i don't wanna die alone. i wanna drag everyone. wakakakkka.
how wonderful if i could create a blackhole. happy ending i guess?
semut elu kemana sih. waktu aku perlu elu hilang. huhu. gw masih takut bener. sialan ya elu. lari tanpa kasih tau gwa. apa masih ngambek karna di kasih macadamia? gw bener bener ngk sengaja tuh. maaf deh kalo gitu. bener gw bukan maksud mau kacangin elu sih. dan gw memang tadi pagi marah bener. waktu mau ngobrol ama elu elu langsung cau. tp yaw dah la. gw juga ngk bisa apa apa in.
then jing ren must be super busy. rest well ok.
then mother duck must had been super tired going on and off from jail"
then bestie off to fight a batelless war.
then eddy got his gp 3.8 and still suck at it.
then everyone died out on me.
then i'm left crying inside fearing of what i wanted to tell semut might happen.
but now i don't wish to tell him anything anymore.
i guess this is what you call heaven forbids.
aren't there anyone else in this world whom i can mixed with?
alien i'm calling you now :D
ps: i ahve no idea too whats with this song. wakkakakaka.