(Just Like) Starting Over
its taken many hard days, and many hard drinks. but, funny enough, i really do feel better.
i've come to terms with what i had, what i lost, and what i still have.
i had many great friends, a few very close friends and one best friend. i had been the happiest i was in years.
i lost my best friend, and probably the respect of others. i had lost a part of me that took alot to form. i lost someone very dear to me. i lost respect for myself.
i still have many good friends, a few more closer friends and still my best friend from long ago. who knows if ill ever have the other best friend again, only time and healing will tell.
but i think the healing has already begun. i've come to terms with what i had lost. i also know that its not the end of the world. i also discovered that there are many out there who do actually give a flying shit what i do with my life.
am i cured? far from it. but im taking baby steps toward that. ive accepted the pain i was in. i accepted the loss i had but those will all heal over time.
i just want to apologize, to everyone. her, you and everyone else out there. i want to apologize for how i've treated you over the years. i want to apologize for dragging you down into my self-induced torment and i want to apologize for making you all worry about me. you've opened my eyes to what i have in this world, and i was a damned fool to think otherwise. thank you, all of you. thanks
i've come to terms with what i had, what i lost, and what i still have.
i had many great friends, a few very close friends and one best friend. i had been the happiest i was in years.
i lost my best friend, and probably the respect of others. i had lost a part of me that took alot to form. i lost someone very dear to me. i lost respect for myself.
i still have many good friends, a few more closer friends and still my best friend from long ago. who knows if ill ever have the other best friend again, only time and healing will tell.
but i think the healing has already begun. i've come to terms with what i had lost. i also know that its not the end of the world. i also discovered that there are many out there who do actually give a flying shit what i do with my life.
am i cured? far from it. but im taking baby steps toward that. ive accepted the pain i was in. i accepted the loss i had but those will all heal over time.
i just want to apologize, to everyone. her, you and everyone else out there. i want to apologize for how i've treated you over the years. i want to apologize for dragging you down into my self-induced torment and i want to apologize for making you all worry about me. you've opened my eyes to what i have in this world, and i was a damned fool to think otherwise. thank you, all of you. thanks