Sometimes you can't make it on your own...
I just returned from my talk with christa's mom...
thinking back and reflecting, it wasn't that bad. and it made me think which is what she wanted me to get out of it, if nothing else...
...well, to start, she's very disappointed in me because i let christa do that without trying to stop her or discourage her. i was also the adult so i lost all respect she had for me. and that she cannot trust either of us and is keeping christa on a shorter leash cause she tried letting her have more freedom, because of me, and we blew it, so now we have to rebuild everything all over again. alot of the disappointment was directed at christa instead of me.
on the bright side, she did compliment both of us a bunch of times, which took me by surprise. she said that she knows how i feel about christa and how christa feels about me and she can see it in how i look at her and how i react around her. she told me that i am a very determined person who has a wonderful future ahead for me. she also stated briefly that she could see a potential future for me and christa.
so yea, that was basically what occured. i was expecting much much worse, i really was. i'd rather have this than what i was anticipating. this really did help me open my eyes and looking back at my post last night, i regret it. i was stupid for making assumptions without hearing her side of the story. i did it out of anger instead of logic. i failed to acknowledge her side of the story and made her out to be worse than her intentions were. while i dont agree with all of what she said or thinks, i completely understand her and i know where shes coming from and i do feel bad about it. i'm truly sorry i put her in that position.
thinking back and reflecting, it wasn't that bad. and it made me think which is what she wanted me to get out of it, if nothing else...
...well, to start, she's very disappointed in me because i let christa do that without trying to stop her or discourage her. i was also the adult so i lost all respect she had for me. and that she cannot trust either of us and is keeping christa on a shorter leash cause she tried letting her have more freedom, because of me, and we blew it, so now we have to rebuild everything all over again. alot of the disappointment was directed at christa instead of me.
on the bright side, she did compliment both of us a bunch of times, which took me by surprise. she said that she knows how i feel about christa and how christa feels about me and she can see it in how i look at her and how i react around her. she told me that i am a very determined person who has a wonderful future ahead for me. she also stated briefly that she could see a potential future for me and christa.
so yea, that was basically what occured. i was expecting much much worse, i really was. i'd rather have this than what i was anticipating. this really did help me open my eyes and looking back at my post last night, i regret it. i was stupid for making assumptions without hearing her side of the story. i did it out of anger instead of logic. i failed to acknowledge her side of the story and made her out to be worse than her intentions were. while i dont agree with all of what she said or thinks, i completely understand her and i know where shes coming from and i do feel bad about it. i'm truly sorry i put her in that position.