Suicide is Beautiful...
I'm listening to music on the Top 100, what's wrong with me? I guess it's like how I hate midgets, I hate them but there are some cool ones just like there are some good songs on the Top 100 even though I hate society and will do anything to distance myself from the people around me. They were the ones that elected Bush and that says a lot right there, well just one thing, that we live in a country full of idiots. Yes I guess this a rant, but it is also 4:40 in the morning and I havn't slept in a while.
With all of the music I listen to you'd think that I could relate to some more of it, but music is going through another shitty phase with all the good bands/artists retiring or just putting out albums this/last year, so no good new music (except yours Jillian). Also all of the stuff I like is seeming to get old since I now actually know the ALL the words to over 400 songs. Oh well...
Oh and another thing. No one should ever try to figure out my away messages, if you don't get them the first time you read them you won't get them at all (and no they aren't full of subliminal or hidden messages). I also have a lot of people telling me I'm angry, not really true I'm as angry as I ever was I just show it more now. Don't worry I'm still happier than a lot of people I just have a wierd way of showing it. And about my profile, it isn't bad to talk about suicide, hell I'll sit down and plan it out for you as long as that's all it is is talk. Not getting into that issue right now.
Still can't stand up strait, tried it today with 2400mg of Ibeprofin in me today and almost threw up in pain. Guess it runs in the family though cause my dad fucked up his back a few weeks ago and it's so bad he might have to get surgery. So we spent a while talking about our situations and then watched Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King. It was a good time because we just spent the time deciding what would have been funnier instead of what really happened, like improvising lines and scenarios. It was great except for when I laugh it hurts as if I have a burning razorblade in my stomach (not good).
Oh and I guess this should be in closing, my puppy is getting really big. He also sleeps more which is wierd. I saw him awake and moving for maybe a total of 3 hours today, which if you've ever had a puppy you know that's underactive. But I still hate typing a lot so I guess I'll end whatever this was and go smoke and go to sleep (maybe, still an insomniac).
Later
With all of the music I listen to you'd think that I could relate to some more of it, but music is going through another shitty phase with all the good bands/artists retiring or just putting out albums this/last year, so no good new music (except yours Jillian). Also all of the stuff I like is seeming to get old since I now actually know the ALL the words to over 400 songs. Oh well...
Oh and another thing. No one should ever try to figure out my away messages, if you don't get them the first time you read them you won't get them at all (and no they aren't full of subliminal or hidden messages). I also have a lot of people telling me I'm angry, not really true I'm as angry as I ever was I just show it more now. Don't worry I'm still happier than a lot of people I just have a wierd way of showing it. And about my profile, it isn't bad to talk about suicide, hell I'll sit down and plan it out for you as long as that's all it is is talk. Not getting into that issue right now.
Still can't stand up strait, tried it today with 2400mg of Ibeprofin in me today and almost threw up in pain. Guess it runs in the family though cause my dad fucked up his back a few weeks ago and it's so bad he might have to get surgery. So we spent a while talking about our situations and then watched Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King. It was a good time because we just spent the time deciding what would have been funnier instead of what really happened, like improvising lines and scenarios. It was great except for when I laugh it hurts as if I have a burning razorblade in my stomach (not good).
Oh and I guess this should be in closing, my puppy is getting really big. He also sleeps more which is wierd. I saw him awake and moving for maybe a total of 3 hours today, which if you've ever had a puppy you know that's underactive. But I still hate typing a lot so I guess I'll end whatever this was and go smoke and go to sleep (maybe, still an insomniac).
Later