just a shell of what I dreamed
hello.
i'm back from work.
it's was tiring. bleh. 5 hours tires me....i need to get back into the routine...lol.
some crazyiness with one customer...but...it blew over. lol.
so yeah...i think i have made...or am about to make one of those big, life decisions.
i'm feeling more and more constricted at home...etc etc...i'm getting tired of the parents...honestly...and even though...yeah...you can say school is going to start in a few months and then i will be "free" again. mmmm...not really feeling that one. nope.
the structure of a wonderful plan is in th works...all the details have yet to be figured out...but. i'm taking a year of school most likely. and i'm moving out. and i'm claiming independence. and i'm going to be working...a ton.
i'm been casually musing over what is to come from this as far as the parents are concerned...lol. they will...prolly not be happy. lol...and i will be cut off. lol...and my mom will definitly not be happy. lol.
no..i will not be following the "norm of society" when i do this...no...i will be doing something different. but then again...i never much cared for this mold of going to college for 4 years...etc etc..right after high school...dorms...then comiong back home.
sure...this plan...this change...will most likely be harder...and be tighter...and have some difficulties...as does everything. but i willing to accept them. it will be fun along the way..and it will be a great life experience to have. adventure is to be had.
yes...i will never be able to come back to them...as far as my parents are concerned and support.
i won't.
they won't have it.
i will talk to them afterwards...and i wil be scorned. i didn't lead the life they wanted/planned for me....etc etc.
if i like it...and i'm happy...then what does it matter? it's my life. and that's all i want from it.
so there.
i will hopefully be able to tranfser jobs if this entails leaving SD. and i might slip in a few online JC classes just to keep myself honest.
I still intend on getting an education. no doubt about it.
there are so many little things...lol...transportation/car, insurance, rent, utilities, etc etc...but i believe...that things will work out. i have...faith. lol.
i know people who would shake their heads.
and i know people who would applaud.
it's all about perception...?
yeah.
so some of us are different. lol.
anyways. so far...i have come to pretty much accept the consequences of what i can see to come from this.
yes.
i'm very excited.
i'm back from work.
it's was tiring. bleh. 5 hours tires me....i need to get back into the routine...lol.
some crazyiness with one customer...but...it blew over. lol.
so yeah...i think i have made...or am about to make one of those big, life decisions.
i'm feeling more and more constricted at home...etc etc...i'm getting tired of the parents...honestly...and even though...yeah...you can say school is going to start in a few months and then i will be "free" again. mmmm...not really feeling that one. nope.
the structure of a wonderful plan is in th works...all the details have yet to be figured out...but. i'm taking a year of school most likely. and i'm moving out. and i'm claiming independence. and i'm going to be working...a ton.
i'm been casually musing over what is to come from this as far as the parents are concerned...lol. they will...prolly not be happy. lol...and i will be cut off. lol...and my mom will definitly not be happy. lol.
no..i will not be following the "norm of society" when i do this...no...i will be doing something different. but then again...i never much cared for this mold of going to college for 4 years...etc etc..right after high school...dorms...then comiong back home.
sure...this plan...this change...will most likely be harder...and be tighter...and have some difficulties...as does everything. but i willing to accept them. it will be fun along the way..and it will be a great life experience to have. adventure is to be had.
yes...i will never be able to come back to them...as far as my parents are concerned and support.
i won't.
they won't have it.
i will talk to them afterwards...and i wil be scorned. i didn't lead the life they wanted/planned for me....etc etc.
if i like it...and i'm happy...then what does it matter? it's my life. and that's all i want from it.
so there.
i will hopefully be able to tranfser jobs if this entails leaving SD. and i might slip in a few online JC classes just to keep myself honest.
I still intend on getting an education. no doubt about it.
there are so many little things...lol...transportation/car, insurance, rent, utilities, etc etc...but i believe...that things will work out. i have...faith. lol.
i know people who would shake their heads.
and i know people who would applaud.
it's all about perception...?
yeah.
so some of us are different. lol.
anyways. so far...i have come to pretty much accept the consequences of what i can see to come from this.
yes.
i'm very excited.