sigh

Oct 10, 2005 19:28

QUESTION:

Is anybody fucking happy in college?!

It seems like everybody that I know and everybody that I went to high school with went to college and never really thought it through before going. It seems like everyone was just looking at the upsides of college:

being away from home
meeting new people
going to parties
working towards a great career
going to an new part of the country

instead of looking at the equally possible downsides:

being away from home
leaving behind old friends
having to study
realizing that your "great career" is not what you want after all
realizing this part of the country is not the utopia you expected
dealing with a long distance relationship

I just have to vent because it seems like everyone is so miserable because I barely read my friend's livejournals anymore because they tend to be full of complaints and problems. I don't know. I suppose that the claim can be made that if you or your parents are paying good money for you to get what you want then you have a right to be upset when shit goes wrong.

However,

I am a firm believer in the the ideal that you get out of something what you put into it. Besides, life is even more limited than money so in any venture, it would make more sense to pissed because it's a waste of valuable years of your life. Or you could also take the point of view that you are going to college to get an education and not to have a good time. Sorry if college didn't turn out to be like it is in the movies. Sorry again if their advertisements and booklets depicted it as being different from how it really is. It's a business. They want your money.

Granted, I can only rightfully speak from my own experiences and in all likelihood I am probably talking out my ass right now. I realize that I'm only 20 years old, I haven't been to college, but for christsakes, you have to admit that it seems like the majority of the people that went to college are bitching a lot, and in my opinion without any basis for comparison. All I really know is how I feel.

Your life is not that bad.

It could be worse, you might have to pay your own way through college.

And I don't mean pay your parents back.

I mean pay with your own money while going to college.

Some people still do this.

I plan on doing it.

No, I don't think this makes me a better person, but when the time comes if I am unhappy at college it will be because I spent four years in the Coast Guard in order to pay for it and I don't feel I am getting my money's worth / I don't feel it is worth the four years I am devoting to college (eight if you count the four spent paying for it).

Four goddamn years. In which I can be sent to any corner of the globe.

Four years of taking orders from people who are idiots, but are in charge of me because their sole accomplishment was joining the Coast Guard before I did.

Four years of putting on the same uniform to work the same 48 or 72 hour shift I've worked dozens of times already.

And if I was 18 again, knowing what I know now, that the service is not everything they tell you it will be, that there are plenty of days where you just don't want to come into work, that only about 1% of your time at work will consist of saving lives (the part of the job that attracted you to it in the first place),

I would still join.

I'm not saying these things for pity. I have no issue with the fact that so far in my life, nothing has ever unfolded the way that I predicted it would. I can deal with things not working out specifically to my plan. I am okay with the concept that there is another 6 billion people out there that all influence each other's lives all the time, including mine.

Hell, maybe I'll go to college and be turn out to be completely wrong about this but all I know is I can't deal with trying to see what people are up to and instead just hearing about how long distance relationships are hard (NO SHIT) or how the roommate is a bitch, or how everybody is so mean and I miss all my old friends.

This is directed towards no one specifically but everybody generally. In any case I have only become more irate while typing this and that only contributes to the decision I've made.

This is my last post in livejournal.
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