congrats to my girl kelsey, who became an aunt today.
it's weird how the smallest and most irrelevant thing, such as a song, a scent, a place, a texture, etc. can remind you so strongly of your past that you are just sitting there watching your life like its a movie and then find your reaction to be so... unexpected and wrong. it doesnt accurately represent the way you are feeling at that moment and can make you feel so weird in a bad way. i need some hanson.
but then you have someone who is awesome and you can talk to about it and wants to listen to you and would listen to you even if you just talked nonstop for a whole day. thats the great part. this person proves you wrong about when you thought you wouldnt feel this way. the word healthy comes into play here... first time in a long time? no more like forever. it makes me wish there were more minutes in the day. bottom line is I AM VERY HAPPY. i mean i dont even care that i have to see the devil (nicky) tomorrow and almost every day for the rest of my life.
but then you have someone who is awesome and you can talk to about it and wants to listen to you and would listen to you even if you just talked nonstop for a whole day. thats the great part. this person proves you wrong about when you thought you wouldnt feel this way. the word healthy comes into play here... first time in a long time? no more like forever. it makes me wish there were more minutes in the day. bottom line is I AM VERY HAPPY. i mean i dont even care that i have to see the devil (nicky) tomorrow and almost every day for the rest of my life.