What I'm thinking Right Now...

[gutterballkid]

I want a better face.
I want a better body.
I want to be beautiful.
I want a better life.
Or just a different one.

I'm not saying this to get your pity.
I don't want your "you ARE beautiful" comments.
I just want to say this right now.

I want to go away.

Comments

[wondertone]

I have moments like this too. I'm not offering pity. I'm just saying that I understand how you feel. The ideals of beauty and happiness are so unobtainable in today's world. Recently, I've come to realize that fuck what other people think, I will be happy in my own way. This of course doesn't mean that you should always be happy, or never sad. These are simple human emotions, and denial of some would make the others much less special.

[gutterballkid]

Yesm, (typo that NEEDED to stay) but this feeling of not being good enough never leaves, except when I'm drunk...are you telling me to be an alcoholic? Score.

[wondertone]

Oh, so you want to be an alcoholic?

[gutterballkid]

Yesm, (best typo ever) but this feeling of never being good enough never leaves me...except when I'm drunk. I don't want to be an alcoholic.

[wondertone]

Now you don't want to be an alcoholic? Make up your mind! <3.

[gutterballkid]

see, I wrote the first one, sent it, then it claimed that it failed to send, so I wrote another one...and I guess in the two I contradicted myself.