whatever number.

[gutss]

we visited tyler lee in rehab last monday. he's really making a change and i feel good about it. i just hope he really means it. i read the letter my dad wrote to him, and the letter tyler wrote to dad. i couldn't help but cry, because it made me realize how much i love tyler and how much he loves us and how out of control things got. this has been going on for two years now and we just found out. we had our suspicions, but nothing else. then december 5th, (technically the 6th) 3:00AM came and we knew. our suspicions were confirmed. but we had no idea what he was really doing. it was so much more than alchohol, and he's honestly extremely lucky to be alive. i don't even want to think about losing a brother, because no matter i have said/or say i hate him, i'd be so lost without tyler lee or tyler steven. when the 12th comes, i hope to see tyler lee and tell him how much i love him and how much i look up to him.

on a lighternote, i'm in love with my wii.
but what i really want is this:


taylor and zach are adorable together.
i want that so badly. :\