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so i just deleted all of my games. i learned something tonight, and i need to not let myself forget it. i need to remember what matters.it's not my headshots, or how high i am in kills versus the next person.it's not that awesome next piece of loot, or that sweet zergling micro.
it's sensation and feelings. it's everything that art can portray. it's everything that makes grass under your feet matter. it's everything that you can tell stories about later. it's the people i don't know and the magic that sparks off of them. it's the air in my lungs before during and after a cigarette. it's that point where you don't know what you're doing anymore, but it just keeps coming and giving you goosebumps, makes your stomach lurch and you don't know why. i'm going to love myself.
i'm going to be an artist. i'm going to be an artist.
it's sensation and feelings. it's everything that art can portray. it's everything that makes grass under your feet matter. it's everything that you can tell stories about later. it's the people i don't know and the magic that sparks off of them. it's the air in my lungs before during and after a cigarette. it's that point where you don't know what you're doing anymore, but it just keeps coming and giving you goosebumps, makes your stomach lurch and you don't know why. i'm going to love myself.
i'm going to be an artist. i'm going to be an artist.