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I have been spending an average of one night a week at my place recently... I'm probably getting kind of spoiled by sleeping with Jake most night... and by kind of, I mean really, because I'm back home tonight, and I have been restless all night and avoiding getting in bed because I would much rather it be with him.
So anyway... I kind of feel like this kid was why I moved to Lawrence. Like I had to put myself through this shit with Thomas to get the point where I'm at now, and I'm happier than I can ever remember being. And I was already feeling that way before Jake came into the picture, so it's not just him, but it seems like everything is going my way right now (the only things I have to get annoyed about are stupid, like that I'm sleeping alone tonight, or that he's never on time for anything).
And I don't care if it's been a short amount of time, and Lindsey says that I put my heart into relationships too soon, but I am head over heels for this kid. I watched him practice with Summer (his bandmate/roommate) for their show this weekend, and I'm a total creeper, but I love just watching him sing, and play keyboard, and play guitar... man I am so fucking into him.
He's been opening up more too, later at night, right before passing out, about exs and big events in his life (shitty events) and all that. And he says the cutest shit. I painted Totoro on my nails, and he took a picture with his phone, and then kept showing people at the party too. And when I keep getting stupid drunk, he'll walk me back. And make me eggs. And he pays attention to my hair, what I wear, if I do my make up different... I don't know. There's so much cute shit, I wish I could remember it all because it makes me googly eyed, and butterflies in my tummy and all that good shit.
Yep, pretty sure I love this kid.
So anyway... I kind of feel like this kid was why I moved to Lawrence. Like I had to put myself through this shit with Thomas to get the point where I'm at now, and I'm happier than I can ever remember being. And I was already feeling that way before Jake came into the picture, so it's not just him, but it seems like everything is going my way right now (the only things I have to get annoyed about are stupid, like that I'm sleeping alone tonight, or that he's never on time for anything).
And I don't care if it's been a short amount of time, and Lindsey says that I put my heart into relationships too soon, but I am head over heels for this kid. I watched him practice with Summer (his bandmate/roommate) for their show this weekend, and I'm a total creeper, but I love just watching him sing, and play keyboard, and play guitar... man I am so fucking into him.
He's been opening up more too, later at night, right before passing out, about exs and big events in his life (shitty events) and all that. And he says the cutest shit. I painted Totoro on my nails, and he took a picture with his phone, and then kept showing people at the party too. And when I keep getting stupid drunk, he'll walk me back. And make me eggs. And he pays attention to my hair, what I wear, if I do my make up different... I don't know. There's so much cute shit, I wish I could remember it all because it makes me googly eyed, and butterflies in my tummy and all that good shit.
Yep, pretty sure I love this kid.