catching up
Wow, it's been awhile since I've updated this journal. So much has happened. I'll summarize as best I can.
So, yeah, I finally got closure from Brandon (the ex I never thought I would ever get an apology or anything from). That was at the beginning of December. It was tremendous, and, it literally took all the weight from my shoulders. I no longer worry about the people in my past that have hurt me since him and Ben and I are able to be friends now. It was a huge burden lifted. I'll always love Brandon, but, that's ok. What was holding me back from really living was the idea that it meant nothing to him. And, I know now that wasn't the case.
So, then, what happens? I fall head over heels for a bassist. Fuckin' musicians. I was going to keep my mouth shut and just have a good time with this guy. He was moving soon anyway, so, I figured we'd just have fun while he was still here. But, he brought up connections and keeping in touch with me, and, all this other stuff. I still didn't let my guard down 100%, but, I let him in more than I'd intended. So, we had an incredible three day affair, and, I left his house on a Wednesday in December, and, never heard from him again. A tiny piece of my heart broke. It hurt. More than anything, I was just happy to have a friend in him. But, it's been over a month since he's said anything. Not sure why he felt he had to lie about all that stuff, but, oh well. That was the only thing, really, that has happened to me that has sucked.
I have two jobs, now. I don't know if I'll be able to keep both of them, but, for now, I'm working at a women's gym. I have only gone in one day, and, for an hour yesterday. It's right up my alley, though, so, if they're willing to work around the photography schedule, I'll do both.
Speaking of photography, I got a job taking preschool portraits with a company called Lifetouch. Training starts this week, and, will take me to Raleigh, North Carolina. It's photography, so, I'm super excited about that. And, I enjoy children, but, we'll see if I'm able to make them happy to have their pictures taken. ;)
And, my friends are getting close to being able to put me to work, too. And, the opportunity they've offered me is by far the best of my options. I'm going forward with the two that I have now, though, just because I'm not sure when Jen and Liam will be able to start actually putting me to work and paying me for it. ;) But, it could be very very soon. If it comes through, I won't keep either of the other jobs, as I'll need to be on call for them.
So, things have been kinda crazy here. But, in a good way for the most part. Robyn and I have hung out a lot, which is always good. She's just a gem of a girl and I love when she's in town.
I've made some new friends...a girl named Ragen, who's boyfriend is in a band, so, I've gone to see them once. I plan to see them again, as they were entertaining. They covered songs, and, I knew most of them, so, that's always fun. And, a guy named Mike, who's an incredible guitar player and songwriter. He hasn't sang (sung?) for me, yet, but, I'm sure he has a good voice, too. He's a very deep person, and, I look forward to hanging out more often with him.
And, I guess I'm seeing someone, now. He's too young to consider anything serious with, but, he's a lot of fun. He's clever, well spoken, great sense of humor, great taste in music and movies, and, is just a real sweetheart. He drives a hot red Mustang, too...not sure what year, but, it's old. I love it. ;) His name's John, and, he looks like John Cusack in one of his pictures, but, not really in real life. He's a doll, though. We've hung out a handful of times, and, I'm always wanting to see him.
I am sick again, though, so, I've been bedridden for the last couple of days. Training starts on Wednesday or Thursday, so, I'd better be fine by then, or I'm going to be mad.
So, yeah, that's my update...I've been so addicted to myspace, I've neglected livejournal...but, I'll try not to let that happen again. I hope you are all well.
So, yeah, I finally got closure from Brandon (the ex I never thought I would ever get an apology or anything from). That was at the beginning of December. It was tremendous, and, it literally took all the weight from my shoulders. I no longer worry about the people in my past that have hurt me since him and Ben and I are able to be friends now. It was a huge burden lifted. I'll always love Brandon, but, that's ok. What was holding me back from really living was the idea that it meant nothing to him. And, I know now that wasn't the case.
So, then, what happens? I fall head over heels for a bassist. Fuckin' musicians. I was going to keep my mouth shut and just have a good time with this guy. He was moving soon anyway, so, I figured we'd just have fun while he was still here. But, he brought up connections and keeping in touch with me, and, all this other stuff. I still didn't let my guard down 100%, but, I let him in more than I'd intended. So, we had an incredible three day affair, and, I left his house on a Wednesday in December, and, never heard from him again. A tiny piece of my heart broke. It hurt. More than anything, I was just happy to have a friend in him. But, it's been over a month since he's said anything. Not sure why he felt he had to lie about all that stuff, but, oh well. That was the only thing, really, that has happened to me that has sucked.
I have two jobs, now. I don't know if I'll be able to keep both of them, but, for now, I'm working at a women's gym. I have only gone in one day, and, for an hour yesterday. It's right up my alley, though, so, if they're willing to work around the photography schedule, I'll do both.
Speaking of photography, I got a job taking preschool portraits with a company called Lifetouch. Training starts this week, and, will take me to Raleigh, North Carolina. It's photography, so, I'm super excited about that. And, I enjoy children, but, we'll see if I'm able to make them happy to have their pictures taken. ;)
And, my friends are getting close to being able to put me to work, too. And, the opportunity they've offered me is by far the best of my options. I'm going forward with the two that I have now, though, just because I'm not sure when Jen and Liam will be able to start actually putting me to work and paying me for it. ;) But, it could be very very soon. If it comes through, I won't keep either of the other jobs, as I'll need to be on call for them.
So, things have been kinda crazy here. But, in a good way for the most part. Robyn and I have hung out a lot, which is always good. She's just a gem of a girl and I love when she's in town.
I've made some new friends...a girl named Ragen, who's boyfriend is in a band, so, I've gone to see them once. I plan to see them again, as they were entertaining. They covered songs, and, I knew most of them, so, that's always fun. And, a guy named Mike, who's an incredible guitar player and songwriter. He hasn't sang (sung?) for me, yet, but, I'm sure he has a good voice, too. He's a very deep person, and, I look forward to hanging out more often with him.
And, I guess I'm seeing someone, now. He's too young to consider anything serious with, but, he's a lot of fun. He's clever, well spoken, great sense of humor, great taste in music and movies, and, is just a real sweetheart. He drives a hot red Mustang, too...not sure what year, but, it's old. I love it. ;) His name's John, and, he looks like John Cusack in one of his pictures, but, not really in real life. He's a doll, though. We've hung out a handful of times, and, I'm always wanting to see him.
I am sick again, though, so, I've been bedridden for the last couple of days. Training starts on Wednesday or Thursday, so, I'd better be fine by then, or I'm going to be mad.
So, yeah, that's my update...I've been so addicted to myspace, I've neglected livejournal...but, I'll try not to let that happen again. I hope you are all well.