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Today was a good day. My friend that I met on myspace took me to the USC/Clemson game. We got in as guests of the Carolina band, so, it was free. We were right next to the band, so, it was loud, but, really energized. I had a great time, even though we lost to the Tigers. Ah, well. And, there was this annoying young couple right in front of us who spent the ENTIRE game staring lovingly at eachother, sitting on eachother's laps, and taking eachother's pictures. They were like an Ambercrombie ad in the making, it was disgusting. I don't have a problem with young love, but, they didn't once pay attention to the game or anything. You're just taking up valuable bleacher space, in my opinion. And, the girl's hair was like a freaking horse tail, and, she swung it around like a horse covered in flies. I would've said something to her if I'd been sitting down, but, as it was, my legs just got a continuous thrashing. ;) And, one of the high school girls behind me wearing a USC Gamecocks jacket was apparently a Clemson Tiger fan, and, a football know-it-all on top of it. It was entertaining. But, seriously, the game was a lot of fun. Since I've been so sick, and, I knew it was going to get pretty cold, I layered and wore a winter coat. People probably thought I was overdoing it, but, I wasn't cold. :) And, that's what mattered.
My parents have been gone for two days now, and, one night. I don't know that I'll be able to sleep in my bed upstairs at all, because I just creep out too easily. So, I'll probably be sleeping on the couch downstairs with the tv on for the next nine nights. Oh, well, at least I can sleep. It would really suck if I couldn't. And, I don't even know what I'm afraid of either. Weirdo.
My room's a wreck, but, I'll probably clean it up in the next couple days. It's mostly clothes and bits of shredded teddy bears. Courtesy of my friendly in-house destroyer of all things stuffed. Killer's resting, now. He went absolutely ape shit when I got home tonight. Of course, I left the house at four to meet Jason at his apartment, and, I got home at midnight, so, Finn had been alone all day. I let him tear through the condo for a good twenty minutes to get his excitement out. My dad would have freaked. :)
I talked for about an hour with my friend, David. I truly love him, and, am so thankful that he's in my life. I wish I could get to Texas to hang out with him, but, there's just no way right now. Soon, I hope. If my car were in better condition, I'd just pack up and drive over there with Finn. I'd be able to hang out there for a week, then, and, make the drive worth it. But, my little Escort is just wobbly. My mom and I both would be nervous wrecks if I attempted that journey again. I think it would just be too much to ask of the car.
I haven't really updated this journal in awhile, because I've gotten so addicted to myspace. It's cool, though, I've reconnected with several people and it's a lot more interactive than livejournal. But, I didn't want to post all this in there, so, here I am. Updating. A bunch of stuff has happened in the last week with Ben, and, now that everything is out in the open and the truth has been told, I can now move on. As long as I can just accept that I will never understand why certain people even bother and why I always choose to devote energy into the wrong people, then, I'll be a-ok. ;)
I will say thank you to Jessica for being there for me when the proverbial shit hit the fan with Ben. It really made the difference. I felt really alone, but, I knew I wasn't. And, talking to her helped so much, especially because at this point, I don't have anyone to actually talk to here. Everyone's away. But, I'm trying to keep my head above water. And, even though I'm up to my nose, I know I won't drown. And, that's something, I guess.
My parents have been gone for two days now, and, one night. I don't know that I'll be able to sleep in my bed upstairs at all, because I just creep out too easily. So, I'll probably be sleeping on the couch downstairs with the tv on for the next nine nights. Oh, well, at least I can sleep. It would really suck if I couldn't. And, I don't even know what I'm afraid of either. Weirdo.
My room's a wreck, but, I'll probably clean it up in the next couple days. It's mostly clothes and bits of shredded teddy bears. Courtesy of my friendly in-house destroyer of all things stuffed. Killer's resting, now. He went absolutely ape shit when I got home tonight. Of course, I left the house at four to meet Jason at his apartment, and, I got home at midnight, so, Finn had been alone all day. I let him tear through the condo for a good twenty minutes to get his excitement out. My dad would have freaked. :)
I talked for about an hour with my friend, David. I truly love him, and, am so thankful that he's in my life. I wish I could get to Texas to hang out with him, but, there's just no way right now. Soon, I hope. If my car were in better condition, I'd just pack up and drive over there with Finn. I'd be able to hang out there for a week, then, and, make the drive worth it. But, my little Escort is just wobbly. My mom and I both would be nervous wrecks if I attempted that journey again. I think it would just be too much to ask of the car.
I haven't really updated this journal in awhile, because I've gotten so addicted to myspace. It's cool, though, I've reconnected with several people and it's a lot more interactive than livejournal. But, I didn't want to post all this in there, so, here I am. Updating. A bunch of stuff has happened in the last week with Ben, and, now that everything is out in the open and the truth has been told, I can now move on. As long as I can just accept that I will never understand why certain people even bother and why I always choose to devote energy into the wrong people, then, I'll be a-ok. ;)
I will say thank you to Jessica for being there for me when the proverbial shit hit the fan with Ben. It really made the difference. I felt really alone, but, I knew I wasn't. And, talking to her helped so much, especially because at this point, I don't have anyone to actually talk to here. Everyone's away. But, I'm trying to keep my head above water. And, even though I'm up to my nose, I know I won't drown. And, that's something, I guess.