Sep 16, 2007 00:41
So i'm a loser. i'm a sentamentalist. stuff has meaning to me.
my bambo plant has meaning to me. it is significant, symbolic of Sara's kindness towards me and sincere wish for me to do well here. It is my lucky bambo plant.
I had no where to store my plant, so I asked my ROTC instructor office to take care of it. I now realize that must have been a very demeaning task to request. But they accepted it. True they said they had no guarentees, but I did not honestly think that they would purposefully neglect it. Now my plant is dieing. I fear it will not survive.
this is going to be a hard year and I could really use all the luck I can get. And my lucky bambo plant - a plant that symbolizes my journey (as lame as that is), is dieing.
I am sad.
if it were such a demeaning task why wouldn't they simply refuse, they have a boat load of excuses that they could have used, and if they honestly were that busy this summer - then they could have said so. But why take out any dislike towards me on my plant. Thats just rude.
I have lost a great deal of respect towards a man I should respect greatly. Why didn't he just say no? Why did he have to kill my plant?
I hate him. (which is bad, cause he's one of the instructors still).