rant about sheryl, reader discretion advised.
wel wat can i say, its bn a while eh? its lyke 2am n i cant sleep so thot y not update on gud ol el-jay, av not bn up 2 much l8ly. jus busy 24/7 wif uni ++ work. altho 2day was rather eventful 2 say tha least...
startd off wif work in tha mornin, den went 2 tha flat n painted it. gettin tennants in on monday =D well class!! den fta dat took sameer 2 cricket which was pretty gud, am finally startin 2 get betta =), den we grabbed sumfn 2 eat n i dropd him home den met work m8s at driftwood...
n dats wher i sn sheryl, on whom btw tha rest of dis entry is gona b based around. shez totally fcukin wif ma head, i mean i work wif her n we flirt wif each otha all tha tyme, bt she cald me 2day lyke an hr ago sayin shez alwayz finkin about me n she misses me n now wants 2 knw how i feel about her. fcukin pain in tha arse y did she hav 2 go n tell me dat, fings wer jus fine tha way they wer! so yeh now av got a decision 2 make, she's sayin she's totally fallin 4 me, n am sayin i dnt knw wat am doin. fcuk sake man wat am i sposta do, i dnt wana hurt her bt i dnt wana lead her on eitha! i wish i culd jus erase dis day n start wif sunday, i dnt knw man. i usta fink she was vain n shyt bt on tha fone she's totally not, i felt so sori 4 her i had no idea tha way she felt. bt now dat i do it meanz i needa do sumfn about it, which is pretty much tha reazn i cant sleep rite now. she was tellin me 2 come round 2 tha flat bt i told her it wasnt hpnin, shez pretty much told me loud n clear wat she wants, i jus needa firstly decide n den secondly tell her wat it is dat i want. i fcukin want fings 2 b lyke dey've alwayz bn wifout knowin how u relle feel!! fcukin hell man, jus wen ye thot lyfe was gettin slightly manageable it jumps up n bites u in tha ballz. kunt. so yeh she wants me 2 fink about it n giv her a fone on monday n let her knw how i feel, i feel lyke takin a runnin jump offa relle tall buildin cuz am clearly not stressd enuf as it iz! i dnt knw y, hell i knw evn knw how, bt i needa sumhow sort dis out wifout fcukin fingz up. usually it wuldnt av bn a prob bt i jus cant b arsed wif relationships, dey fcuk ye up. tru story. newayz i fink dis rant has gone on quite long enuf, had 2 make up fer lost tyme innit.
newayz yeh 2moro goin 2 auction wif muno 2 sell his swift n c sum possible future rides, oh n yeh i'll update on monday or sumfn 2 let ye knw how it went.
1 luv,
Az!
startd off wif work in tha mornin, den went 2 tha flat n painted it. gettin tennants in on monday =D well class!! den fta dat took sameer 2 cricket which was pretty gud, am finally startin 2 get betta =), den we grabbed sumfn 2 eat n i dropd him home den met work m8s at driftwood...
n dats wher i sn sheryl, on whom btw tha rest of dis entry is gona b based around. shez totally fcukin wif ma head, i mean i work wif her n we flirt wif each otha all tha tyme, bt she cald me 2day lyke an hr ago sayin shez alwayz finkin about me n she misses me n now wants 2 knw how i feel about her. fcukin pain in tha arse y did she hav 2 go n tell me dat, fings wer jus fine tha way they wer! so yeh now av got a decision 2 make, she's sayin she's totally fallin 4 me, n am sayin i dnt knw wat am doin. fcuk sake man wat am i sposta do, i dnt wana hurt her bt i dnt wana lead her on eitha! i wish i culd jus erase dis day n start wif sunday, i dnt knw man. i usta fink she was vain n shyt bt on tha fone she's totally not, i felt so sori 4 her i had no idea tha way she felt. bt now dat i do it meanz i needa do sumfn about it, which is pretty much tha reazn i cant sleep rite now. she was tellin me 2 come round 2 tha flat bt i told her it wasnt hpnin, shez pretty much told me loud n clear wat she wants, i jus needa firstly decide n den secondly tell her wat it is dat i want. i fcukin want fings 2 b lyke dey've alwayz bn wifout knowin how u relle feel!! fcukin hell man, jus wen ye thot lyfe was gettin slightly manageable it jumps up n bites u in tha ballz. kunt. so yeh she wants me 2 fink about it n giv her a fone on monday n let her knw how i feel, i feel lyke takin a runnin jump offa relle tall buildin cuz am clearly not stressd enuf as it iz! i dnt knw y, hell i knw evn knw how, bt i needa sumhow sort dis out wifout fcukin fingz up. usually it wuldnt av bn a prob bt i jus cant b arsed wif relationships, dey fcuk ye up. tru story. newayz i fink dis rant has gone on quite long enuf, had 2 make up fer lost tyme innit.
newayz yeh 2moro goin 2 auction wif muno 2 sell his swift n c sum possible future rides, oh n yeh i'll update on monday or sumfn 2 let ye knw how it went.
1 luv,
Az!