Rearing my ugly head
Meh. I was gunna post something but I deleted it before it posted.
I should definately write in this thing more often though. Lately, the days just seem to be blurring together. I find myself hiding... If there was a rock I could crawl under, i'd have done it by now. Matt has his new job, and things seem to be working out well for him so far. Of course, there are things at his work that aren't so great, but no job is perfect right? He's going to be moving out with Kai soon... I hope they find an apartment soon. I find myself in a huge credit card debt from AX and just general spending. A lot of my spending is done on Matt too... mainly because I can't justify spending on myself. However, lately, I've been feeling a really strong urge to splurge and buy myself tons of new clothing. I haven't given in, obviously. You only need to take one look at me to realize i've been wearing the same stuff since High School. Not that I care. Still, I really would like to have a bit more to wear...mainly skirts. I happen to really love skirts and dresses at the moment. The weather is not exactly my friend on this subject though. I've also been fighting the VERY strong urge to buy many ps2 related items. Funny thing is, I dont HAVE a ps2... Matt does. Granted, I bought it for him, but it's still his, and he's already stated his need for it as a DVD player in his new abode. I'm sorely tempted to buy him a dvd player just so I can borrow his ps2 on a longterm basis. I bought parapara paradise and the controllers a few weeks ago for his ps2, since i'm borrowing it atm. Since PPP is NTSC-J only, I went ahead and bought a slidecard and boot discs... just so I can play PPP on a ps2 that isn't even mine. Call me crazy... cuz I am... and you wouldn't be lying.. and stuff. I'm just DREADING him taking it back. I can just IMAGINE the look on his roomies face when I bounce around to PPP in their living room. Oh lordy lordy lord....Did I also mention I wanted to buy a dvd-rw drive so that I can make backups of ps2 games (read pirate games, for preview purposes of course u.u; I'm not a TOTAL thief... if there's sucha thing as partial-thief O_o)? Yup... It'd only cost me about 100 bux for one... and then like 20 bux for a spool of dvd-rs... So tempting. Too bad school is almost starting and I'm supposed to pay 300 bux in rent, and buy my books and pay my whopping credit card debt all at once. Somehow, the trip to Las Vegas for my 21st birthday is looking not so feasible at the moment. Unless of course, matt strikes it rich suddenly and decides to become my finance provider. I have extra money.. but I'm determined not to touch it (anymore)... I already took out 500 bux to cover some expenses. So sad. My savings has been defiled ;( I swore to never touch that money until I pay off my school loans. :T So much for that.
Sigh. Is it so much to ask that I marry a rich guy so that I never have to think about money ever again? I really should work more often. I don't want to, but I should. They are short on people at work too... many people on vacation and suchlike.. Nah, I think I'll stay lazy. Yup. I must gather all my energy for the coming semester. I'm actually quite determined to make things work out to the best of my abilities this semester. No more fucking around. Seriously. I need to hurry up and graduate so I can get a full-time job, and move out. It's the thought of being a full-time student AND a full-time worker that is keeping me in my parents' house. I think I need a new job.. if I had a job that didn't involve touching people's food all day long, I'd probably be willing to work a touch more than I am currently. Sure, Todai is quick fast money (sometimes >_>), but still. I'd take a stable pay check anyday. At least I wouldn't walk around with gobs of one dollar bills anymore. hehehe.
I should definately write in this thing more often though. Lately, the days just seem to be blurring together. I find myself hiding... If there was a rock I could crawl under, i'd have done it by now. Matt has his new job, and things seem to be working out well for him so far. Of course, there are things at his work that aren't so great, but no job is perfect right? He's going to be moving out with Kai soon... I hope they find an apartment soon. I find myself in a huge credit card debt from AX and just general spending. A lot of my spending is done on Matt too... mainly because I can't justify spending on myself. However, lately, I've been feeling a really strong urge to splurge and buy myself tons of new clothing. I haven't given in, obviously. You only need to take one look at me to realize i've been wearing the same stuff since High School. Not that I care. Still, I really would like to have a bit more to wear...mainly skirts. I happen to really love skirts and dresses at the moment. The weather is not exactly my friend on this subject though. I've also been fighting the VERY strong urge to buy many ps2 related items. Funny thing is, I dont HAVE a ps2... Matt does. Granted, I bought it for him, but it's still his, and he's already stated his need for it as a DVD player in his new abode. I'm sorely tempted to buy him a dvd player just so I can borrow his ps2 on a longterm basis. I bought parapara paradise and the controllers a few weeks ago for his ps2, since i'm borrowing it atm. Since PPP is NTSC-J only, I went ahead and bought a slidecard and boot discs... just so I can play PPP on a ps2 that isn't even mine. Call me crazy... cuz I am... and you wouldn't be lying.. and stuff. I'm just DREADING him taking it back. I can just IMAGINE the look on his roomies face when I bounce around to PPP in their living room. Oh lordy lordy lord....Did I also mention I wanted to buy a dvd-rw drive so that I can make backups of ps2 games (read pirate games, for preview purposes of course u.u; I'm not a TOTAL thief... if there's sucha thing as partial-thief O_o)? Yup... It'd only cost me about 100 bux for one... and then like 20 bux for a spool of dvd-rs... So tempting. Too bad school is almost starting and I'm supposed to pay 300 bux in rent, and buy my books and pay my whopping credit card debt all at once. Somehow, the trip to Las Vegas for my 21st birthday is looking not so feasible at the moment. Unless of course, matt strikes it rich suddenly and decides to become my finance provider. I have extra money.. but I'm determined not to touch it (anymore)... I already took out 500 bux to cover some expenses. So sad. My savings has been defiled ;( I swore to never touch that money until I pay off my school loans. :T So much for that.
Sigh. Is it so much to ask that I marry a rich guy so that I never have to think about money ever again? I really should work more often. I don't want to, but I should. They are short on people at work too... many people on vacation and suchlike.. Nah, I think I'll stay lazy. Yup. I must gather all my energy for the coming semester. I'm actually quite determined to make things work out to the best of my abilities this semester. No more fucking around. Seriously. I need to hurry up and graduate so I can get a full-time job, and move out. It's the thought of being a full-time student AND a full-time worker that is keeping me in my parents' house. I think I need a new job.. if I had a job that didn't involve touching people's food all day long, I'd probably be willing to work a touch more than I am currently. Sure, Todai is quick fast money (sometimes >_>), but still. I'd take a stable pay check anyday. At least I wouldn't walk around with gobs of one dollar bills anymore. hehehe.