nothings ever easy when its in the middle of the night
38 days till home.
on friday night james, shelleys brother called me-he was in town and he and some friends were at a bar. shelley got on the phone and asked me to go to h&m the next day..so saturday i met them-we shopped, went to dinner, and i ended up talking to her for like 3hrs. it was great. no lie, it felt so good. we're the only people here who truly understand each others shit-we also got around to our own problems, and realized when the 'breakup' occured we were both harboring the same emotions. wierd ass. she invited me to hopes (crazy girl from her class) house in queens for an easter get together the next day. i was supposed to go to church that morning, but i got up and just didnt feel like going to a place and seeing families all happy together, when im alone here. but the dinner was really nice-we all made something-betsy was there, we've been getting along pretty well. nikole got back last night, and was totally cool about the people in the room thing, which i had been sweating out all weekend. i never realize how much i miss that kid till she goes away. i also called diana yesterday-good convo-miss her like crazy. today my adorable kid sister sent me a e-photo collage w\ pictures of me, her, and orlando bloom. along with a message that made me cry telling me how much she misses us talking and how she never really meant the 'i cant wait till you go to school' comment. i cried...if she only knew. i also saw that wesleys not restricting his lj anymore-tho he wrote some wierd entry about 'being engaged' when he gets back from denton. i know him, and i know its a classic one liner that doesnt have anything to do with his true meaning-he just gives you a teaser, so you'll ask him, and he can feel important. whatever. the word is totally out about me wanting kenin...i just hope he gets on the ball sometime this decade-preferably in the next 38 days.
ps-my painting went over well in class and auga got laid-lucky bitch
on friday night james, shelleys brother called me-he was in town and he and some friends were at a bar. shelley got on the phone and asked me to go to h&m the next day..so saturday i met them-we shopped, went to dinner, and i ended up talking to her for like 3hrs. it was great. no lie, it felt so good. we're the only people here who truly understand each others shit-we also got around to our own problems, and realized when the 'breakup' occured we were both harboring the same emotions. wierd ass. she invited me to hopes (crazy girl from her class) house in queens for an easter get together the next day. i was supposed to go to church that morning, but i got up and just didnt feel like going to a place and seeing families all happy together, when im alone here. but the dinner was really nice-we all made something-betsy was there, we've been getting along pretty well. nikole got back last night, and was totally cool about the people in the room thing, which i had been sweating out all weekend. i never realize how much i miss that kid till she goes away. i also called diana yesterday-good convo-miss her like crazy. today my adorable kid sister sent me a e-photo collage w\ pictures of me, her, and orlando bloom. along with a message that made me cry telling me how much she misses us talking and how she never really meant the 'i cant wait till you go to school' comment. i cried...if she only knew. i also saw that wesleys not restricting his lj anymore-tho he wrote some wierd entry about 'being engaged' when he gets back from denton. i know him, and i know its a classic one liner that doesnt have anything to do with his true meaning-he just gives you a teaser, so you'll ask him, and he can feel important. whatever. the word is totally out about me wanting kenin...i just hope he gets on the ball sometime this decade-preferably in the next 38 days.
ps-my painting went over well in class and auga got laid-lucky bitch