Woes
I have returned from a very fun and eye-opening vacation... but it doesn't satisfy my weary heart.
The thing that kept recurring is the idea of "wrong-place, wrong-time". From the beginning, things didn't sync with the plans I made... I started off getting where I wanted to go late on the first day and then almost never caught up. Some things went really well, and I forgot all about timing but then it would rear it's ugly head...
One example of this was when Kathleen told me her feelings of our short relationship, saying that had I gave her more time and opened up to her, that we could quite possibly still be together today and that I would have never gotten into the thing with Annemarie. GREAT... LIKE I NEEDED TO HEAR THAT!!! Especially now that she has a girlfriend!!!!
Other random things happened like phones not working and credit card companies not posting payments upon receipt and car troubles --not mine this time but it happened to a couple of people who I saw on my trip.
There was the lack of communication from all those in SoCAL... what's up with that??? They think they are too good to tell you what's going on even if it may change everything you've been planning on entirely??? I don't get it or like it!
Back to the wrong time again... ANGIE, my high school GF, told me things that were similar to what Kat was saying but that she wishes I would move back to SoCal and in with her and pay part of the rent --the catch to that is that she wanted me to live in the living room while she had the only bedroom and fucked her new boyfriend whenever she wanted!!! I may have gone for that back in the "day" but no more. What kind of dream world is she living in!!! I don't know why I like bi girls so much but I'm not in the "sharing" mood these days. So we had a disagreement and she accused me of being jealous of someone who I don't even know plus I haven't seen her in two or three years and well its been over 10 years since we've been together sexually!! IS THAT CRAZY OR IS IT JUST ME?!?!
NEXT STOP: the OC. Stood up at first by a fag... the one who I thought was the most reliable and wanted to see me most! BUT SHIT HAPPENS... no worries... I went to SANTA ANITA RACETRACK instead to see the HORSIES!
Once I got to OC, RICH had to work both days I was with him (he was supposed to be on vacation) so we spent as much time as we could together... honestly though, I got tired of him before it was over so it's all good. He did take me to see my friends in Victorville... I had the best time with them! They are my adopted family :-)! THAT PART WAS WAY TOO SHORT!!!
I'm gonna skip the part about my sister right now... (it's kinda intense)
I was EXTREMELY THRILLED to see my nieces!!! I LOVE THEM BOTH SOOOO MUCH!!!
Nearing the end of my trip I was happy to be moving on to SAN DIEGO... I had a great time there too...
I think I may have had more pleasant experiences with first-time meetings than I did with long-term friends. No, I KNOW I did!!! Great time in SAC with an awesome girl!!! And a most memorable time at SIX Degrees with the DEEJAY in SAN DIEGO!!! (and the bartender too! oh and that girl from ALABAMA!!) I want to go back soon to see them all!!!!!!!!!!!
----------Anyway... I'm home now. The bubble has burst! I had a weekend crush... there's no use for it here... it's the timing thing, why bother? I'm not moving any time soon although I want to in a year maybe...
It was just a stupid crush... and I'll soon forget... --I’ll try to anyway.
The thing that kept recurring is the idea of "wrong-place, wrong-time". From the beginning, things didn't sync with the plans I made... I started off getting where I wanted to go late on the first day and then almost never caught up. Some things went really well, and I forgot all about timing but then it would rear it's ugly head...
One example of this was when Kathleen told me her feelings of our short relationship, saying that had I gave her more time and opened up to her, that we could quite possibly still be together today and that I would have never gotten into the thing with Annemarie. GREAT... LIKE I NEEDED TO HEAR THAT!!! Especially now that she has a girlfriend!!!!
Other random things happened like phones not working and credit card companies not posting payments upon receipt and car troubles --not mine this time but it happened to a couple of people who I saw on my trip.
There was the lack of communication from all those in SoCAL... what's up with that??? They think they are too good to tell you what's going on even if it may change everything you've been planning on entirely??? I don't get it or like it!
Back to the wrong time again... ANGIE, my high school GF, told me things that were similar to what Kat was saying but that she wishes I would move back to SoCal and in with her and pay part of the rent --the catch to that is that she wanted me to live in the living room while she had the only bedroom and fucked her new boyfriend whenever she wanted!!! I may have gone for that back in the "day" but no more. What kind of dream world is she living in!!! I don't know why I like bi girls so much but I'm not in the "sharing" mood these days. So we had a disagreement and she accused me of being jealous of someone who I don't even know plus I haven't seen her in two or three years and well its been over 10 years since we've been together sexually!! IS THAT CRAZY OR IS IT JUST ME?!?!
NEXT STOP: the OC. Stood up at first by a fag... the one who I thought was the most reliable and wanted to see me most! BUT SHIT HAPPENS... no worries... I went to SANTA ANITA RACETRACK instead to see the HORSIES!
Once I got to OC, RICH had to work both days I was with him (he was supposed to be on vacation) so we spent as much time as we could together... honestly though, I got tired of him before it was over so it's all good. He did take me to see my friends in Victorville... I had the best time with them! They are my adopted family :-)! THAT PART WAS WAY TOO SHORT!!!
I'm gonna skip the part about my sister right now... (it's kinda intense)
I was EXTREMELY THRILLED to see my nieces!!! I LOVE THEM BOTH SOOOO MUCH!!!
Nearing the end of my trip I was happy to be moving on to SAN DIEGO... I had a great time there too...
I think I may have had more pleasant experiences with first-time meetings than I did with long-term friends. No, I KNOW I did!!! Great time in SAC with an awesome girl!!! And a most memorable time at SIX Degrees with the DEEJAY in SAN DIEGO!!! (and the bartender too! oh and that girl from ALABAMA!!) I want to go back soon to see them all!!!!!!!!!!!
----------Anyway... I'm home now. The bubble has burst! I had a weekend crush... there's no use for it here... it's the timing thing, why bother? I'm not moving any time soon although I want to in a year maybe...
It was just a stupid crush... and I'll soon forget... --I’ll try to anyway.