Jul 17, 2008 18:24
Here I am at work... how weird.. since basicly---
10 hrs. or more I WORK
02 hrs. eating brake
07 hrs. I sleep
03 hrs. I sing
02 hrs. IM BLANK
I feel like that BLANK... like a robot.. i wake up i drink coffee i get dressed i wake up fer i go to work i come back home and eat i try to relax i go back to work i get out of work i go sing i finish singing i get on the bus and go back home i sit down and stare at the wall i take a shower i eat cereals and i go to sleep... now repeat about 364 times
IS THIS WHAT WE DREAM OF WHEN YOURE YOUNG AND ALL U WISH FOR IS TO GROW UP...
oh i forgot.. I have sex.. like max. 3 times a month.... god what the fuck is wrong with life..
ME? YOU? HE? THEM?
I wish i could start over and stay in high school where i hated it so much bc now all i do is miss it... miss all the bullshit that now doesnt mean anything...
I WANNA CRY!
is this depression?
OR JUST LIFE?
Please someone clear this up for me... bc if orgasms are this boring..... god... i think ill buy a vibrator and go travel the world.. at least he doesnt speak and make you feel so BLAH!!!!
I GUESS.. I HAVE EVERYTHING I WANTED.. AND NOW.....I JUST DONT KNOW HOW TO FEEL... god this sounds so selfish... but why dont i feel complete...............................................................................