leave me alone.......
Wow. I cried for the first time since March 18th. I cried about myself for the first time since March 18th....
I woke up this morning, it was PJ day so I changed into something matching and well that was that. My dad says you take so long to get fucking ready and you don't even get out of what you went to bed in! You're riddiculous. I was ticked off for him saying that because like usual I didn't take a long time getting ready I didn't wake up till 7 o'clock. But instead of yelling at him for making his stupid comment I simply said it's "Spring Week" at school and today is pajama day. ((I only dressed in my jammies because I wear my pj's to school often and they are comfy, I'll probably wear a hat tommorrow as well)) Well I thought that is the end of that and I said bye dad see you after school he says bye have a good day....
I was in the car on my way to school and he calls me up and bitches at me, you're not trying hard enough at school I can't belive I raised a failure! and so on for like 2 minutes...it seems a lot longer.. I just said dad I'm trying I do my homework I study Math and Science are just hard for me I'll try harder. But he bitched and bitched.
I don't get how I was crying all the time, I think that's why I need someone to go out with all the time, when I'm told I'm loved I don't cry I am so happy! Love and Dreams are all that keep me going, they are very very powerful. If I'm not loved I'm sad but then I can dream a love that makes me happy. And with out dreams I'd need love, I feel so selfish saying that I need love and attention but it's true... So even though I say leave me alone I think I'll always need a little attention. <3
I woke up this morning, it was PJ day so I changed into something matching and well that was that. My dad says you take so long to get fucking ready and you don't even get out of what you went to bed in! You're riddiculous. I was ticked off for him saying that because like usual I didn't take a long time getting ready I didn't wake up till 7 o'clock. But instead of yelling at him for making his stupid comment I simply said it's "Spring Week" at school and today is pajama day. ((I only dressed in my jammies because I wear my pj's to school often and they are comfy, I'll probably wear a hat tommorrow as well)) Well I thought that is the end of that and I said bye dad see you after school he says bye have a good day....
I was in the car on my way to school and he calls me up and bitches at me, you're not trying hard enough at school I can't belive I raised a failure! and so on for like 2 minutes...it seems a lot longer.. I just said dad I'm trying I do my homework I study Math and Science are just hard for me I'll try harder. But he bitched and bitched.
I don't get how I was crying all the time, I think that's why I need someone to go out with all the time, when I'm told I'm loved I don't cry I am so happy! Love and Dreams are all that keep me going, they are very very powerful. If I'm not loved I'm sad but then I can dream a love that makes me happy. And with out dreams I'd need love, I feel so selfish saying that I need love and attention but it's true... So even though I say leave me alone I think I'll always need a little attention. <3