January 21st, will it be a tru yay???
I seriously just need to vent about shit... im not asking for sympathy.
I just need someone who will understand where i am coming from...
*today i started thinking-2 weeks i should hopefully be able to play sports again. Yay right? No, im soo fucking scared, i dont want to fuck up this knee again, or better my OTHER knee! I just keep getting scared each day i go throught getting closer to Jan. 21st. Yeah i have been waiting for that day since i hurt my knee! which was like 5 months ago :-/. But really i never thought i'd get so scared about something in my life. Really, this injury made me findout how much i really do enjoy basketball. How it truely is like my life. and i really am nothing with out. Yeah i might sound like im messed up and shit. But no one will truely understand me. Maybe one other person that i know. I seriously hate this... why am i still crying myself to sleep when i know i'll be playing in 2 weeks!?!?! I thought i'd finally be happy for once in the past 5 months, but idk what im feeling, what im supposed to think or do. i just feel like im alone and no one can help me.. But yeah no one will read this anyway... so whatever i'll stop bitching.. bye*
I just need someone who will understand where i am coming from...
*today i started thinking-2 weeks i should hopefully be able to play sports again. Yay right? No, im soo fucking scared, i dont want to fuck up this knee again, or better my OTHER knee! I just keep getting scared each day i go throught getting closer to Jan. 21st. Yeah i have been waiting for that day since i hurt my knee! which was like 5 months ago :-/. But really i never thought i'd get so scared about something in my life. Really, this injury made me findout how much i really do enjoy basketball. How it truely is like my life. and i really am nothing with out. Yeah i might sound like im messed up and shit. But no one will truely understand me. Maybe one other person that i know. I seriously hate this... why am i still crying myself to sleep when i know i'll be playing in 2 weeks!?!?! I thought i'd finally be happy for once in the past 5 months, but idk what im feeling, what im supposed to think or do. i just feel like im alone and no one can help me.. But yeah no one will read this anyway... so whatever i'll stop bitching.. bye*