Not Home Yet
The car is still in the shop. I had so much trouble trying to wake up today that I missed their phone call at 9 this morning. I set the clock on my cell phone to go off twice, once at an unlikely morning hour for me to get out of bed (to make sure that I at least take my pills on time) and a second at noon. I must have mistaken the phone call as one of the alarms. I don't really remember how many times it went off.
When I finally did get out of bed I was so groggy that you could hardly describe the state I was in as 'awake'. I also had the chills so bad that I felt as if I slept in a snow bank. I couldn't get warm, even in a hot shower. My kidney hurt so badly that I had to assume that I hadn't taken any pills despite my carefully laid plans with the alarm clock.
I remember Linda coming home and calling out to see if anyone was there. But I found that I couldn't remember her name to get her attention and my brain was working so poorly that it didn't occur to me to get her attention by other means. I must have dropped off while trying to puzzle out the problem. I heard her say goodbye to the cats and the door closing.
I got myself out of the bed and down the hallway and stared out the back window to see if she was getting into the car in her garage. There was no one in sight, however. I'm not sure how long I stared out the window before it occurred to me to look out the front to see if she was getting into a car parked on the street. I saw a car I recognized parked out front, but it drove away before I remembered whose car it was. By that time it seemed like so much work and effort that I just stumbled back to bed and tried to curl up in my blankets for some warmth.
I've never been a morning person, but this seemed a little extreme even for me. The chills and grogginess (and another that it TMI) match symptoms that Ginger was experiencing before she was diagnosed with cancer. The symptoms were not caused by her cancer, but they were never explained either.
No, I don't think I have cancer, but I'm certainly going to be much more pushy and insistent at my doctor's appointment on Wednesday than I had planned on.
I'm definitely not going back home as soon as I had planned two days ago. Certainly not until the car and I both have been given a thorough check-up.
When I finally did get out of bed I was so groggy that you could hardly describe the state I was in as 'awake'. I also had the chills so bad that I felt as if I slept in a snow bank. I couldn't get warm, even in a hot shower. My kidney hurt so badly that I had to assume that I hadn't taken any pills despite my carefully laid plans with the alarm clock.
I remember Linda coming home and calling out to see if anyone was there. But I found that I couldn't remember her name to get her attention and my brain was working so poorly that it didn't occur to me to get her attention by other means. I must have dropped off while trying to puzzle out the problem. I heard her say goodbye to the cats and the door closing.
I got myself out of the bed and down the hallway and stared out the back window to see if she was getting into the car in her garage. There was no one in sight, however. I'm not sure how long I stared out the window before it occurred to me to look out the front to see if she was getting into a car parked on the street. I saw a car I recognized parked out front, but it drove away before I remembered whose car it was. By that time it seemed like so much work and effort that I just stumbled back to bed and tried to curl up in my blankets for some warmth.
I've never been a morning person, but this seemed a little extreme even for me. The chills and grogginess (and another that it TMI) match symptoms that Ginger was experiencing before she was diagnosed with cancer. The symptoms were not caused by her cancer, but they were never explained either.
No, I don't think I have cancer, but I'm certainly going to be much more pushy and insistent at my doctor's appointment on Wednesday than I had planned on.
I'm definitely not going back home as soon as I had planned two days ago. Certainly not until the car and I both have been given a thorough check-up.