Cali
My sweet, precious cat Cali died unexpectedly last night. She was not quite 4 years old. God, she was so special to me. She was partially paralyzed in her back legs when my sister and I first adopted her and she was one of the biggest blessing I've ever had. She was so loving, grabbing my hand with both paws and pulling it to her face. She always seemed so grateful, like she realized she had been given a 2nd chance.
She was prone to urinary tract infections and had been fighting another one. When the culture came back, there was a lot of sludge in her bladder and the dr. said she would need to flush it. It was a simple procedure and everything seemed to go well. She was still acting out of it when we brought her home yesterday, but she had been sedated for the procedure. About 12:30 this morning, she started making funny noises and seemed to be having trouble breathing. We rushed her to the vet, running red lights. My sister even tried to give her cpr, but she was gone before we got there.
The dr. said that it probably didn't have anything to do with the procedure, that she may have had a blood clot that dislodged and became lodged in her lungs or heart as happens sometimes in paralysis patients.
We had just started acupuncture treatments for her because her dr. thought she might be able to get more mobility through that and therapy. I feel like I failed her somehow, like I made the wrong decision in having the bladder procedure or having the accupuncture, or something. Everything seemed to be ok before all of that. She got around fine at home, she drug her legs, but she had tons of upper body strength and could pull herself up on the couch to lie. She loved life, and being petted, and eating. She loved us and we loved her. I was just trying to give her the best quality of life she could have and I feel like I should have left things the way they were.
We have to make the decision today to take her body and bury her or have her cremated. I think I may have her cremated so I can her with me. I don't even know if I have any pictures of her. Sometimes I get so busy living life with those I love, that I forget to save memories by taking pictures. I'm afraid I'll forget what she looks like.
Some people don't think that losing an animal is a big deal. I love my animal babies with my whole heart and am devastated at losing her. She was an amazing little person with fur and will miss her for the rest of my life.