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[gunsnrosez]

I dont really know when everything fell apart in my life. Maybe it was when I kissed you back. Maybe it was when I always came back to you. Maybe it was when i ditched my bestfriends for you.
I dont know if im going to make it this time. I hate being fake. I hate this fake smile I share to everyone, just so you can see im happy, and you can feel bad.
I hate putting on an act.
If only I could change the past, and change everything.
But I wouldnt be as strong as I am.
But fuck strongness, im tired of being strong.
Its what has kept me together, and now ive fallen apart, so whats the use?
Your my bestfriend, or were.
I dont know what I ever did wrong to you, and I dont know why you always get so angry.
Plain and simple; I deserve so much better.
Buts its YOU I want, and its YOU im not going to give up.
But maybe its to late, and that is what kills me.
I am waiting for you, for however long you need.
But I am no longer letting you walk all over me.

"everything i do is never good enough" - you say.
Everything I do for you, I never really get thanked.
Everything I buy you, never gets replaced.
So, NO, everything I do isnt good enough, if I treat you like this.

Im sick of this world.
I really need help this time.
Im really down.

Save me?