The Long Awaited Update
I have been extremely busy lately. My heart has just been racing towards this certain girl I like. I have known her for the longest time too. I wish I could tell her how I feel but I don't know how to. Tonight I am planning on telling her how I feel when we go to Grand Haven. Here is a poem I wrote while up in Higgins Lake about how I feel.
Being Happy
Oh Lord you know every day that goes by
I look to you, up in the sky
I try to do what I am supposed to day by day
Of course I am tempted and tend to sway
I have some questions but please don't shout.
Please forgive me God and hear me out.
Am I not supposed to have what I want
because I don't go with the crowd?
Is their someone for me?
Why can't I be found?
It seems the world kicks me out
though I have the key.
The most important question for you Lord.
Why can't I be happy?
I try to be the nicest person
a friend to the bone.
I try to put everyone in front of me
which leaves me here alone.
I need you to listen closely
for this hits to the heart.
Please bear with me one last time
I don't want you to part.
Why is it nice guys finish last?
You'd think they'd finish first.
But in this world we live in
we finish with the worst.
I keep on trying every door
with my magic key.
But the door gets slammed in my face.
"I'm sorry," they say "you can't be happy."
Please answer my prayer Lord
so I can get on with my life.
Though I expect the days that follow
will still end in strife.
If it be your wish Lord
you hold onto the key.
I hope you find someone for me
so I can be...happy.
"This is my prayer, I say it true,
Dedicated to the one I thought I knew.
But never did, and just because
I just found out who I never was" - Rod Lee C.
