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The LiveJournal Writer's Block prompt asked me what the last wedding I went to was: my cousin, Miles, got hitched last month after two years of living an unorthodox life with his fiancee and daughter. Unorthodox for here, as this country is one of stark Catholicism and traditional family mores.
Hardly the most important of news I have to share, but it is a start.
I've been in four countries since January, each time long enough to begin to feel comfortable before shipping out and relearning the rhythms of each new environ. By year's end I might add a fifth to that list, and next year a sixth. I discount any repeat adventures within the same country. This world's nomad isn't pleased, and it is beginning to affect more than just my his mood.
Unsurprisingly, I've crossed the threshold between regular gaming and out-and-out escapism. It began with the timezone shift and the availability of my old life turning from evening to morning. I no longer end my day with some easy entertainment, but now rather begin it and, thus, allow it to consume the productive hours. There is no salvaging it by nightfall, worn out as I am by forged habits. Instead, I sleep and gear for the next day of self-destructive habit.
It isn't even the game anymore. It is that the game is one of my last links to a life I've bitterly left behind. Each week that passes here seems to drive home how much of a trap this place is to me. Debt is catching up to me, my family isn't doing much better, and the pay here is abysmal. For the same work and longer hours than one will find in Canada or the United States, I would be paid a quarter. I'm not even joking.
The people I know and try to forge friendly relations with are great, though. And talented. I've met a couple of fellow Virgo in the mix and, to anyone who has had to deal with me from day to day... I'm sorry. As Brett tells me, it is the lack of consistency that makes a Virgo an infuriating beast. Placating is difficult, if even possible with anything save time.
I'll show you what one made for me in p-chat. I got to watch it. It was, seriously, one of the most amazing things I've ever had the pleasure of seeing. Maybe when I'm feeling less lazy (and aren't slacking off from things I ought to be writing up instead, like press releases, et al) I'll post up the screenshots of the process itself, from squiggly lines to final product.
More another time when I feel up to it.
Hardly the most important of news I have to share, but it is a start.
I've been in four countries since January, each time long enough to begin to feel comfortable before shipping out and relearning the rhythms of each new environ. By year's end I might add a fifth to that list, and next year a sixth. I discount any repeat adventures within the same country. This world's nomad isn't pleased, and it is beginning to affect more than just my his mood.
Unsurprisingly, I've crossed the threshold between regular gaming and out-and-out escapism. It began with the timezone shift and the availability of my old life turning from evening to morning. I no longer end my day with some easy entertainment, but now rather begin it and, thus, allow it to consume the productive hours. There is no salvaging it by nightfall, worn out as I am by forged habits. Instead, I sleep and gear for the next day of self-destructive habit.
It isn't even the game anymore. It is that the game is one of my last links to a life I've bitterly left behind. Each week that passes here seems to drive home how much of a trap this place is to me. Debt is catching up to me, my family isn't doing much better, and the pay here is abysmal. For the same work and longer hours than one will find in Canada or the United States, I would be paid a quarter. I'm not even joking.
The people I know and try to forge friendly relations with are great, though. And talented. I've met a couple of fellow Virgo in the mix and, to anyone who has had to deal with me from day to day... I'm sorry. As Brett tells me, it is the lack of consistency that makes a Virgo an infuriating beast. Placating is difficult, if even possible with anything save time.
I'll show you what one made for me in p-chat. I got to watch it. It was, seriously, one of the most amazing things I've ever had the pleasure of seeing. Maybe when I'm feeling less lazy (and aren't slacking off from things I ought to be writing up instead, like press releases, et al) I'll post up the screenshots of the process itself, from squiggly lines to final product.
More another time when I feel up to it.