don't panic panic, luke, don't drive erratic
urgh urgh urgh. lately i've been feeling reallyyyyy flustered and rushed. like life is just rushing by and i'm being caught up with it. like i'm not trying to go against the flow but it'd be really nice to just press a pause button and have some breathing room. like.. i haven't seen my mum & sister in weeks and i've got saturday off work so i can go see them....... for one day. it seems really pointless but i'm trying to take every chance i get to go back and see them.
it's ridiculous. college five days a week and work almost every saturday/sunday is just killing me. i want to quit one of them but i need them both. i've got a week off college but it's already been filled up with bollocks. monday is Nige's death anniversary, tuesday Trudy's coming down from London to see me. then i'm working wednesday/thursday and i hope to god i'm not working the weekend after because that just gives me friday to get my energy back.
why is everything moving so fast?! i've feeling so depressed because of it. obviously not DEPRESSED depressed but y'know. angsty.
and i've not been eating properly. or sleeping properly. booo.
ok going to go and avoid going to sleep. maybe i'll work on my nanowrimo idea.
ETA: and because i like ending posts with a picture, here's one i just pulled off of StumbleUpon. i'd actually quite like to disappear down some open road somewhere for a little while and regain my energy.
it's ridiculous. college five days a week and work almost every saturday/sunday is just killing me. i want to quit one of them but i need them both. i've got a week off college but it's already been filled up with bollocks. monday is Nige's death anniversary, tuesday Trudy's coming down from London to see me. then i'm working wednesday/thursday and i hope to god i'm not working the weekend after because that just gives me friday to get my energy back.
why is everything moving so fast?! i've feeling so depressed because of it. obviously not DEPRESSED depressed but y'know. angsty.
and i've not been eating properly. or sleeping properly. booo.
ok going to go and avoid going to sleep. maybe i'll work on my nanowrimo idea.
ETA: and because i like ending posts with a picture, here's one i just pulled off of StumbleUpon. i'd actually quite like to disappear down some open road somewhere for a little while and regain my energy.