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why do i really have big crushes on girls i can't have? i never thought of it till now knowing that i'm here in New Jersery, so far away from this one gal in another time zone. aside from that, call me R. Kelly. regardless, i'm pretty mad knowing. i must kick myself in the ass. yet again, its rare for me to have feelings for a girl. god damn forbidden fruit. oh well, i've liked her before. its not the first time, nor second. damn i'm not all there. i'll get over her in a few months only becuase i have to. then i'll fall for her again. oh well.
it was said that its hard to be gay. but i have to say, its just as hard being strait because now a days, everything is so fucked up, that its no different.
well i'm back in NJ and the sun goes down so soon. at about 430PM, its pretty dark. the sunsets and brings beautiful colors and shades of red and orange. the trees are dead and dry as skeletons hangin from a clan rally. the ground is so moist from all the snow that melted and the rain the kept on coming. so far its heated up signifcantly to the point where its quite comftorable. PT Shorts seem to be in fashion for the mean time. but how long will this weather last us?
LTC Busko said that this weather was a chance to continue excelence at the prep school and prepare ourselves for west point. i wish i could agree with him about the weather, but it is a great to prepare one's self for the suck that is west point.
my christmas break was awesome. in a town that has absolutly nothing to do but get drunk and raise hell, why did i have such a great time with a clean conscience?
its because i have freaking awesome friends, who arepretty mych my second familiy.
i got free concert where great songs like "act like Frankie" and " here comes the bum" were sung. and i had front row seats!! i shot a trophy buck and set the par for the ranch. i fell in love with living agina.
'im happy to be going through this. it sucks, but it worth it knowing that tax money is being invested into my dumbass.
but i miss my home and my friends. my dad talks of possibly moving when my sisters graduate to another state to just get the hell out of dodge. alarms start going off in my head. to hell with them, i'm still going to be in rio. thats where my friends are. my grandmother is there, my adoptive family will always reside there.
i'm happy, but i'm sad, but i' mhappy and so on.
it was said that its hard to be gay. but i have to say, its just as hard being strait because now a days, everything is so fucked up, that its no different.
well i'm back in NJ and the sun goes down so soon. at about 430PM, its pretty dark. the sunsets and brings beautiful colors and shades of red and orange. the trees are dead and dry as skeletons hangin from a clan rally. the ground is so moist from all the snow that melted and the rain the kept on coming. so far its heated up signifcantly to the point where its quite comftorable. PT Shorts seem to be in fashion for the mean time. but how long will this weather last us?
LTC Busko said that this weather was a chance to continue excelence at the prep school and prepare ourselves for west point. i wish i could agree with him about the weather, but it is a great to prepare one's self for the suck that is west point.
my christmas break was awesome. in a town that has absolutly nothing to do but get drunk and raise hell, why did i have such a great time with a clean conscience?
its because i have freaking awesome friends, who arepretty mych my second familiy.
i got free concert where great songs like "act like Frankie" and " here comes the bum" were sung. and i had front row seats!! i shot a trophy buck and set the par for the ranch. i fell in love with living agina.
'im happy to be going through this. it sucks, but it worth it knowing that tax money is being invested into my dumbass.
but i miss my home and my friends. my dad talks of possibly moving when my sisters graduate to another state to just get the hell out of dodge. alarms start going off in my head. to hell with them, i'm still going to be in rio. thats where my friends are. my grandmother is there, my adoptive family will always reside there.
i'm happy, but i'm sad, but i' mhappy and so on.