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I don't understand myself lately. I'm alternating between periods of just contentment and just basic happyness and periods of depression and just feeling pathetic and sick. It sucks. I wish I knew what brings me from feeling happy to just crashing and feeling helpless and sick. I wish I knew what brings me out of the depression to the happy feeling. I don't get it. Fuck this shit. The more I try to figure it out, the more hopeless the problem seems. I do know that if I keep busy, keep my mind occupied, than I feel ok. Maybe this is just a side effect of coming back. But, I've been feeling this way for almost the last year. Guess I just gotta deal. I always gotta deal.