Sep 15, 2006 08:37
Have you ever had to sit down and take a look at who you are? I see myself now, and I see myself 6 months, 1 year, 4 years ago.. and everything is so different. My inspirations, my dreams, the music I listen to, my motivations, my constant surroundings, the people I associate with, inside of me..
The leaves are changing again. The tips are shades of yellow and red and brown. If for nothing else, I love utah for the fall season. I'm looking forward to the leaves on the ground, and the bare trees. The cool weather is much needed for us here, it has been a hot summer. I know this sounds off the wall, but I can relate to the fall season. I feel myself calming down, and changing.
Fall is a season of change, and change is what I'm anticipating. This morning is perfect. I feel no stress on my shoulders, I'm home alone, and I can breathe. September and October in Utah bring things I feel lucky to see. I know friends back east are unaware of the amazing things that happen during these months, but I wouldn't change this for the world.
Normally, my thoughts are scattered. Scattered was a word my dad used to use when talking about me. Scattered because of everything that went on, and goes on. I feel myself coming together, and I feel myself looking toward the future. I have goals, and every intention of getting through the obstacles, head up. Lucky for me, I'm not alone. I have personal goals, and a hand to hold to get there. I have physical goals, and someone to work with me to get me there. I have lifetime goals, and someone who's going to be there until I acheive them.
Fall is a season to get rid of the old, and start anew. Fall makes me feel more alive, and stronger. Its time to break out the hoodies and gloves.
Winter is soon to come.