hmmmm
So tomorrow is the big day. Im moving out. Not necessarily on my own but in a sense I will be. Im moving in with my boyfriend and I am very excited. And all this time that I have been counting down I have been telling everyone about how great its going to be and about how excited I am. I finally get to be with my love every day. No phone calls goodnight but kisses. And I really am happy and excited. But tonight it actually hit me that I'm moving. I started pulling stuff off of my walls and I realized that its really happening and tonight will be the last night that I sleep in this room that Ive called my own for some time now. I know I'll be back to visit but it won't be the same. I got really sad about leaving. I looked in my closet and just pictured it empty and it brought a tear to my eye. I know it might sound lame. I mean I'm only moving a little more than an hour away but still. My family and all my friends are here. I will miss them all very much. Especially Hil...and my mom. I get homesick when Im away for too long so hopefully it comes and goes with ease and eventually I will be settled in in my new home and everything will be great. And I know that once me and Tim have our very own apartment it will be even better. Then I can have all my friends and family visit and all will be good.
I should be sleeping right now but I really couldn't. I have no doubt in my mind that I want to move tomorrow. What I'm feeling has nothing to do with me going there but just leaving here. I know that I'm going to move out sometime...I can't live at home forever. So I might as well do it now, as hard as it may be for me to leave everything behind. Eek. I'm kind of scared about living in a new town. Finding my way around a big city. Not knowing anyone other than my boyfriend and all his friends and family. I'm not going to have friends of my own. But I'm sure it will all get better with time. Sigh. I'm ready.
This is Tiffany...signing off.
I should be sleeping right now but I really couldn't. I have no doubt in my mind that I want to move tomorrow. What I'm feeling has nothing to do with me going there but just leaving here. I know that I'm going to move out sometime...I can't live at home forever. So I might as well do it now, as hard as it may be for me to leave everything behind. Eek. I'm kind of scared about living in a new town. Finding my way around a big city. Not knowing anyone other than my boyfriend and all his friends and family. I'm not going to have friends of my own. But I'm sure it will all get better with time. Sigh. I'm ready.
This is Tiffany...signing off.