I'm hopelessly hopeless you're just hopless enough

[gunshotxmisery]

I feel like my life is going nowhere. School hasn't been working out for me. So I just threw away a whole year of free school. And now I actually have goals. But I feel like it is going to take me forever to achieve them. And lots of money that I don't have. Not to mention there is so much more I want to happen in my life which, right along with a career, is going to take forever to come around. And I suppose it will all workout in the future, or atleast I hope it does. But I feel like I've been waiting forever for stuff to happen and now I feel like I'm just gonna be waiting all my life. I know I won't but that's just what it feels like. I just want to fast forward time to a point in my life where I have a degree in accounting and a great job and I'm married and I live in a nice house which my husband and I worked very hard to pay for and perhaps there will be a baby on the way. That is when I will truly be the happiest. I am happy now but I could be so much happier.

I suppose I will work on the whole school thing. I will work on getting my degree. And now that I actually have goals I am a little more motivated to do good in school. At least thats one thing I can try and get out of the way. As for everything else I dream of having in my life, i just have to try and be patient and wait for it to come to me. And like I have said before, I will wait as long as I have to...even if it kills me. And I think it may come close to doing so.

Sigh. I just want it to be the future already.