what the fuck is hope for?
things are bad. but good at the same time.
lots of different... well
...you know.
and im happy with my boyfriend. he treats me good and makes me happy. so much more healthy than tim. im glad i found what ive been looking for. sometimes he sends shivers down my back. the best feeling in the world <3.
as for my new best friend... we call her snow white. and thats all i have to say about anything.
dont think im a bad kid or that i shouldnt do what i do. im trying to have fun and i actually think i found the one to party with now and settle down with soon.
its nice.
my social life is at a halt i think. tess and david and bob and julie never really want to hang out and when we do theres always a tension. like they only invited me cause there was nothing else to do.
but whatever.
my <3 will heal.
and im going through so many changes and im not sure what im doing in life or what im even suppose to be doing now. i broke down today and cried for like 20 minutes... just thinking about it. thinking about my mom telling me she hated me and listening to her tell my little brother and little sisters to stay away from me cause i was a bad person. i thought things were bad when they woudlnt let my little brother or sisters in my room cause of who i am. im hiding my identity now. they have no idea who i am.
...but neither do i.
lots of different... well
...you know.
and im happy with my boyfriend. he treats me good and makes me happy. so much more healthy than tim. im glad i found what ive been looking for. sometimes he sends shivers down my back. the best feeling in the world <3.
as for my new best friend... we call her snow white. and thats all i have to say about anything.
dont think im a bad kid or that i shouldnt do what i do. im trying to have fun and i actually think i found the one to party with now and settle down with soon.
its nice.
my social life is at a halt i think. tess and david and bob and julie never really want to hang out and when we do theres always a tension. like they only invited me cause there was nothing else to do.
but whatever.
my <3 will heal.
and im going through so many changes and im not sure what im doing in life or what im even suppose to be doing now. i broke down today and cried for like 20 minutes... just thinking about it. thinking about my mom telling me she hated me and listening to her tell my little brother and little sisters to stay away from me cause i was a bad person. i thought things were bad when they woudlnt let my little brother or sisters in my room cause of who i am. im hiding my identity now. they have no idea who i am.
...but neither do i.