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OOC Information
Alias: Mika-chan
Contact Info: AIM: an inked heart
E-mail: bite.you.to.death@hotmail.com
Other characters: Nope~
IC Information
Character: Gilbert Nightray
Canon: Pandora Hearts
Point in canon: Mid-Chapter 40 [after he goes after Oz‘s father]
Age: 24
Personality: Gil is rather interesting character to know when you get to know him deep down.
If one had to look at him from a distance though, they would see that he is very complex and there’s much more to him than meets the eye at first glance. On the outside there's a hard, tough exterior that he’s built up around himself over the years because he wants to keep people out and close himself off from the outside world. He does this in order to not be vulnerable. Because vulnerability would mean it would be easier to be hurt - and possibly wounded - which is something he does not want happening while he is serving Oz as to make sure he’s going to stay safe.
Though several years ago he used to be a lot more innocent, smiled more and was so much more carefree than he was today. That was back when he'd been only a child, but only when he lost Oz to the Abyss, was when things changed and Gil found himself lost, tormented and rather guilty. To have lost both his precious master and closest friend after getting so close to him over the years. It broke him to an extent that he cannot forgive himself for not being able to protect him or stop him from disappearing down there. Throughout the manga and the length of the anime’s episodes, we see him go through a whole set of emotions even though he tries his damn best not to allow himself to display them. People seem to see Gil as a strong person. But there are even things that can break down anyone given the right circumstances. One of those said things is seeing his precious master, Oz in pain. It’s seen through the series just how bad Gil feels towards the boy (and Jack as well.) It’s so bad that it’s borderline unhealthy bordering on obsession and Break was the one who had told him this at one point before Oz had gotten out from the Abyss. That’s just the way he is and while he tries to hide that possessive side, he falls short on more than one occasion.
Another aspect of him is that he may say things like he 'doesn't care' about certain things, it’s the opposite as his mind always seems to be eating away at him with several different plaguing thoughts. The types that seem to eat away at him from the inside out. His brother, Vincent, knows this little fact all too well from their confrontations over the years and the time spent together. He also is not afraid to show animosity towards his brother and for several different reasons as more seen in more of the recent chapters in canon. Some remain a mystery while others? Not so much.
Gil is still very much like a puzzle and is hard to figure out even to this day but this’s the simplest explanation I can give.
History: At the very beginning, it starts off for Gil, a boy who showed up at the Bezarius manor with no memories at all, and was taken into the household. Here, he meets a boy named Oz and is told then that he will be his servant, and it’s not even long after this that the young Gil devotes his whole life to serving the blonde and this is enough for Gil for several years up to when Oz is 14 turning 15, and Gil himself is around 14 as well. Over the years he’s been bullied by the blonde over and over but he still wants to serve him, due to the fact that Oz was rather traumatized and broken by the fact his father said he never wanted to touch him and that he was filthy.
So this was what brought on his utter and devout loyalness to the young heir to the extent that he would be willing to give his own life if it meant keeping Oz safe. Time passed by and everything seemed to be going well until the day of Oz's fifteenth birthday. In the daytime, they fell into the bowels of an old ruin where a lone cross lay in front of them. Oz, being the curious one that he was, reached out a hand and took hold of a pocket watch that hung from the cross. It looked innocent enough, but when he opened the thing, it put him in a hypnotic trance. In his mindset, he was taken to a place where Alice had tried to strangle him, but in reality, he was standing at Gilbert's side, staring off into space.
Oz intended to have his uncle Oscar look at the watch, but he forgot to after the group returned to the Bezarius estate where they were having the Coming of Age ceremony at. Oz requested for Gil to be there at the ceremony, even though Gil decided against it immediately because he didn't figure he was deserving enough to be able to participate in such an event, but hesitantly agreed to anyways. Oz had to tend to a few matters with Ada [his little sister], which made the group go their own separate ways. Oz went with Ada and Gil found himself in the clutches of a woman with split personalities named Zwei. Zwei took possession of Gil using the power of her ‘chain’ (Doldam). Doldam's power is immobilizing and controlling people using invisible strings. Zwei used those very strings of her chain in order to take control of Gilbert. At the night of Oz's birthday at the Coming of Age Ceremony, Gil re-appeared but this time being possessed by the woman named Zwei. The ceremony soon turned into chaos after Oz had made his vow and touched the legendary old clock. As it gave off the loud, distinct chime, A group of cloaked people in red crashed the ceremony and threw Oz's world into a hellish world that he never even saw coming. Because Gil was being possessed, he ended up then stabbing Oz in the shoulder with a dagger and saying how ‘delicious‘ his blood was but at the same time, it really wasn‘t Gil saying this. He would have stabbed Oz again but a strange girl called ’B-rabbit’ appeared and created enough of a distraction and as the cloaked people fought the B-rabbit chain, Gil went over to the leader and asked why did Oz deserve this, and through a lightning flash, he recognizes the man. Oz thinks Gil’s in danger and raising a sword intended to hurt the enemy, ended up bringing a sword down upon Gilbert's chest with one clean swipe before he‘s able to stop himself. As Gil lay there feeling his life slip away, he could only listen helplessly as his best friend and Master was taken away into the Abyss. He soon passed out because of the toll his body had taken.
When he awoke after this, Oz was gone and he was hurt and saddened beyond all belief as he’d lost him and was completely at a loss at what to do. Around this time, he ran into a strange man who called himself Xerxes Break. The man presented the idea that he was a person who could be of great use to Gil, managed to convince the boy into being adopted by the Nightray family. Though naturally Gil was never one to trust odd strangers so quickly, when Break mentioned a way to help save Oz, he did what was asked of him obediently. Break had also told him that Vincent, who was supposedly Gil’s younger brother, had been also found by the Nightray family and taken in. It was rather shocking to hear this news and at the same time, it’d also made Gil quite afraid as well. He was never too good with meeting new people, and since he had no memory of who Vincent was, it made him incredibly afraid of him.
However, Gil agreed to contract and tame the Nightray chain which went by the name of Raven, but only as it was in exchange for Break agreeing to help save his master from the Abyss’ clutches. When he managed to not only make a contract but tame the chain, he took on the name ‘Raven’ and left his old name behind as it had way too many painful memories attached to it and it reminded him of Oz. If we look at the two of them, it’s shown that Raven’s a more stronger side of Gilbert and Gil doesn’t like to appear weak to anyone. It’s seen in how he continues to work for Break and to an extent, the organization called Pandora [which is essentially who Break works for]
A few years pass and soon it’s been ten years and they’ve been working on a chance to free Oz from the Abyss, but before it’s executed, Oz arrives through making a contract with the chain called B-Rabbit who more commonly calls herself Alice here. Raven was shocked here to find that Oz went to such lengths to free himself from the Abyss considering he, Break and a girl called Sharon Rainsworth had been about to do so anytime now. Irony hadn’t ever worked in his favor here, it seemed. It’s not long after this that Alice appears using Oz’s body but it doesn’t last long as Break forces her out with his staff. Along with this incident, a chain appears from the abyss and Gil is forced to unseal Alice’ power [which was sealed while Oz was unconscious] Once her power’s unleashed, Alice goes on to defeat the chain and afterwards, everyone got to see a peek from one of her memories from the pocket watch and only after this does Break ask the two to work for Pandora as well.
On their first mission, they find an illegal contractor and Gil tells Oz that the fate of all illegal contractors is that when their seal on their chest makes one whole revolution, the contractor and the chain are taken to the lowest levels of the abyss which is what will happen if Oz and Alice cannot find Alice’ memory fragments.
Second mission after this, the group head over to Oz’s old mansion and there, a member of the Baskervilles, their enemy are there and captures Gil in her Chain’s strings, making him be controlled by her and she makes him attack Oz to the point that he has Oz down with his gun pointing at the boy’s shoulder. Oz then moves the gun to under his chin proclaiming that he’d rather die first rather than see Gil betray him and that shakes him enough that Gil shakes himself from the control and shoots the enemy woman, making her withdraw for now. In this scene though, it’s seen that for the first time, Oz really finds out that Raven is indeed Gilbert, his servant from the past and that ten years has passed as well.
After this confrontation, Oz and Gilbert have a talk, and in the end of it, Oz allows Gilbert to stay being his servant and to not leave his side. Says to him that even though he’s changed, he’s yet still the same old Gilbert but with a stronger face and new skills and this only further serves to strengthen the bond between Master and Servant once again.
They then get a glimpse at Alice’ memories where it soon breaks off into a twisted world and they meet a strange little white-rabbit that ends up with Oz leaving a cryptic message to it and shooting it in the head with one of Gil’s guns that he’s been holding onto before the world crumbles and they get sent home.
We see them next at Gil’s house, where they have a brief talk with Break and Oz has an encounter with a girl who leaves them a strange letter that Gil seems to know who it’s from but says nothing of it as he really doesn’t want to worry people more than necessary and they head into the marketplace and Gil goes to have a talk with Oz when Alice demands meat and goes off on her own. After a bit of reluctance from Oz, Gil gives Oz his hat to watch over and says to wait while he goes after Alice and instead, as he buys food with her, they have a talk that leads into Gil getting a bit angry and tells Alice never to mention parents in front of Oz as it’s a rather tender subject with him and if he can avoid it being brought up, he will.
He explains to her that because of him, Oz had to find out that his father hated him. Hated him to the extent that he told him he was filthy and wouldn’t even touch him. Gil still blames himself even if Oz tells him otherwise and now that it’s said, even Alice knows of this as well. Unfortunately they soon run into a chain, forced to run because the person essential for unlocking Alice’s power isn’t here so she can fight.
Then Oz, a girl named Echo and the two of them run into each other along with the chain and his contractor in tow. The girl attacks the chain and is knocked away and the resulting attack breaks the bridge Oz’s on. After managing to unseal Alice’s powers, he falls unconscious and when he does wake, it’s to see a man with a gun pointed to Oz’s head and he draws his, only to hear Oz cry not to shoot, but then a bullet kills the man. One right to the head and it’s easily said and done. The shock of seeing this starts to send Alice’s power through Oz and hurts him and Gil rushes forwards to stop the flow of power while telling Oz it wasn’t him who killed that man and then another man comes from the alleyway with blond hair and mismatched eyes. He was the one who’d done it. Then after this, they go back to the mansion with the man so everyone can rest in warmth.
Gilbert then tells Oz that the man is his little brother and then explains to them his past of what happened while Oz was in the abyss, where he met Break, contracted with his chain Raven and what he’d done in order to try and get Oz back even if he got back on his own powers.
The next day is more humorous than the others.
Since Gil had lost his hat, he drags the two - Oz and Alice - out to find it and the end result is that they end up in an arm-wrestling match with the people who found it and claimed it was theirs. Using his devious skills, Oz wins the first match. As Gil goes against the woman whom is his opponent, Oz’s Uncle Oscar Bezarius shows up to help and sweet-talks Gil sneakily and wins over him easily to his dismay. Then Alice faces the toughest of the three men and only manages to win because Gil discreetly released her power enough to let her overpower the man.
After this win, Gil gets back his hat and him, Oz and Uncle Oscar have a small reunion of sorts after they get away from those people. A while later, they find out that Alice has disappeared and after a closer look around, they find out that Alice /and/ Break have been taken away somewhere and once they get back to see Sharon, she tells them that the two are in Cheshire Cat’s Dimension and Sharon uses her chain to open a portal to where the two are and Oz readily agrees. Of course Gil protests to Oz going there but Oz convinces him otherwise and the two go along into the dimension.
Once there, Sharon explains to them that they’re in Cheshire’s dimension and that she was separated from Break as it was, meaning something must have happened to him here. That’s about when Cheshire reveals himself and he is very much a cat-like chain, so of course even though he’s dangerous, Gil’s terrified of him for the mere reason he’s just a cat of sorts. His phobia of cats still hasn’t vanished even ten years later. This leads to Oz having to pull Gil away from Cheshire as he attacks so he isn’t hurt. Sharon then materializes her chain, Eques so they can get away from Cheshire for a little while at least.
As they run, they meet a twisted version of Alice whom Gil shoots down as it’s merely a fake. Cheshire then catches up and explains this place was created by Alice’s memories. Gil’s about to release Raven’s power so he can fight Raven but is distracted so Cheshire’s able to get one up on him and manages to slash him across the chest, where he falls over the railing
He wakes in an unfamiliar place though it looks like an old memory like they’d seen at least once before which is a scene from 100 years ago. And after lots and lots of endless searching, he runs into a man called Jack Bezarius, who, after a short bit, manages to bring Oz to where he is as well and saving him from the Cheshire Cat who’d been about to attack him. Oz then worries and frets over Gil, making him smile and tell the blonde that he’ll be perfectly alright, though after this, Jack goes to Oz and tells him he’s the one who can find Alice, and uses his power to send Oz off which makes Gil angry and demands he’s sent after Oz and points his gun at Jack. However, Jack merely blinks and takes Gil’s gun to his forehead with a smile very reminiscent of Oz’s and of course he doesn’t shoot, though Jack does mention something about Gil’s lack of memories and that’s when Gil sinks down, saying he doesn’t want to remember anymore, which Jack understands and seems to pull him close for a moment, saying it’s alright.
It’s only a short time after this that the world starts to crumble and shake, and Jack explains it must be that whatever Oz has seen has affected him and it’s him doing this as Gil can also feel his hand that seals Oz’s power start to ache and burn painfully, which is when Jack finally tells Gil to go protect him and stop him before he destroys this world and sends him off to where Oz is. Gil is then left to stumble through the crumbling world until he finds a dazed Oz wandering down one of the crumbling halls and when Gil tells him to stop Alice’s power before he destroys everything, Oz just starts to go on about destroying everything that makes Alice sad, everything that hurts her and is generally not himself, which scares Gil to the core. To snap Oz from that crazy daze, he hits Oz in the face and tells him to wake up and makes Oz remember what they came to this dimension to do and that seems to work.
A bit after, they see Alice at the top of a old-creepy staircase, and that’s when Oz goes up to catch Alice as she falls from the chains she’s held up with, Gil catching the both of them when they fall and that’s when the world starts crumbling again and Break shows up, fighting a more demonic-huge version of Cheshire Cat and it’s a short time after this that Sharon’s chain Eques takes Oz and Alice back and in the end, Gil has to use his own chain, Raven to send him and Break home before the world entirely crumbles to pieces.
Of course this drains him and he’s left weakened and tired from the use of power, and after a while he wakes up and knows he has to find Oz because he arrived here at Pandora’s Headquarters and comes in to find Oz now talking to Pandora, saying he is Jack Bezarius from a 100 years ago and announces to everyone that Glen Baskerville is not dead and will try to recreate the tragedy of Sabrie and it’s revealed too about Oz and how he came back from the Abyss on his own powers. Gil’s then remembering that painful day again and he feels sick again remembering it once more. Jack, within Oz’s body then tells Gil it’ll be okay and then tells everyone how that Oz is the key to stopping the Baskervilles and his words are so powerful of an Order that everyone bows down to him and Oz is given his body back once more.
Then there’s a skip up to the next time we see Gil and that’s when him, Oz, Alice and Uncle Oscar take a trip to see Ada [Oz’s little sis] at her school and do so undercover in school uniforms. A lot of shenanigans occur there, one of them with Oz and the Baskervilles and here we find out that the reason Gil likes his hat so much is because Ada gave it to him as a gift.
Following the school business, Break, Gil, Oz and Alice go to see one of the 4 dukes, by the name of Rufus Barma. They first meet a large, roly-poly, grinning man who goes by that name and reveals to the others that Gil has tried 8 times to quit smoking before the man barrels off and Oz and Alice follow after him. Then, Break asks Gil if he’s afraid of being left behind and that Oz will keep changing more and more, making him have a lot to think a bout. A short time later, they run into the real Rufus Barma who shows himself thanks to Break slicing through the fake, and after a short talk, Rufus slices open Break’s shirt and reveals a completed seal on his chest, and as he passes out, Rufus tells everyone of the past Break has not told everyone. How Break got that name ‘red eyed ghost’ and how he met the Will of Abyss and his old name had been ‘Kevin Regnard’ and how he’d managed to get some things changed in his past. Here, it’s also revealed here that Alice and the Will of Abyss are twins. In Jack’s notes, it was revealed how he knew of this fact but had been unable to do anything about that as well. It’s not long after this that they get enough information and head home where Gil and Oz grasp Break in a sort of hug and calls him a /friend/ which isn’t easy accepted [on the surface at least].
In the next chapter, we next see Gil when he goes to see his brother, Vincent about what happened to him all that time ago as he wants to know more about his memories. When Vincent tells Gil that anything he migth have done would have been done for Gil, he gets angry and pins Vincent to the wall angrily and tells him that if it had anything to do with Oz, he’d never forgive him, brother or not. Then after a small pause, Gil sinks to his knees with pain searing from his hand which signals that Oz’s seal has moved a little and that’s when Vincent sweeps in and asks him how long Oz has left and that makes Gil instantly stiffen as it’s not something he likes to talk about. That’s when Vincent starts to ask Gil that if he cares so much for Oz, then why doesn’t he kill Alice and save Oz before he’s dragged down to the abyss when his time completes and then Gil snaps back to Vincent that no, no he’s never thought of Alice as a friend despite what Vincent says to him otherwise and then Gil starts to think maybe he can kill her and that’s when memories start flashing through his mind and with these jumbled memories he starts to mumble that it doesn’t matter who it is, he’ll kill them if they try to take Oz away from him. He’ll kill every. One. Of. Them. That is what he screams out before stopping, realizing what he’d said and he feels sick because he’d said that amidst his memories and his head’s spinning now. Vincent comes to coddle him, pulling him close to him and says he’s the same as he was before. And tells him that no matter who he kills that he’s the only one by his side.
He later finds out on his trip back that Oz’s seal really did move and from then is rather quiet and distant from Oz, not speaking much to him whatsoever. He stays in his room until Oz slips a rather /suicidal/ note beneath his door, which makes him rush out to apologize and tell Oz that’s not the case and and finds Oz just sitting there with a smile and then announces so brightly that they’re heading to Sabrie.
So they head off there into the city, and Oz separates from Gil and Alice and that’s when Gil starts to remember what Vincent had gotten into his head and that and starts to think it’d be better to kill her and he hears nothing what she says as he gets almost overwhelmed by those memories of his, but as her ground cracks where Alice is, he doesn’t kill her. He rather protects her from getting hurt and then berates her for not seeing the crack in the ground and that’s when Alice thanks him for saving her. That startles him and he runs off and after his mind gets barraged with memories and yells for the memories to shut the hell up and that’s when Oz shows up and hits him, berating him for running off. Oz asks him what happened with Alice and can tell something’s wrong with him and tells Oz how he wants to regain his memories and that he fears that when he gets his memories back that he won’t be himself anymore.
Oz then tells him that it’s okay and he’d always be by his side no matter how much he changed and it’s then that Gil says he does not want to let his memories consume him.
Elliot then finds them and they’re taken to the Nightray orphanage for a short time before they head out into Sabrie once more after Eliot snaps at Gil and says he’s making him suffer. After this, they travel further and all of them get separated by Sabrie’s illusions. Gil sees a smaller version of himself and seems to follow before he feels pain, signalling that Oz’s released more of Alice’s powers wherever he is at this point in time.
However the feeling vanishes to show Oz had control of that power and he’s scared that Oz won’t need him and more memories bombard him once again and he starts to wonder if he’ll be free if he remembers as well as getting rid of all of his worries that he’s been feeling since that talk with Vincent. Sinking to his knees, in this memory, it’s Jack that finds him. Tells him then about the past and how when he was younger so long ago, that Gil died from protecting Jack so long ago and that Glen Baskerville killed him. Jack then comforts him and says he’s so happy that Gil called out his name and calls Gil his ‘cute little servant’.
Because of Jack, Gil’s memories start to come back into place. He remembers that him and Vincent spent years on the streets alone until Jack took them into his household. While there, a woman seems to do something to him and makes sure that he is to serve his master and kill off every enemy of Jack’s and after this, it’s only a short time after that he was killed by Glen. Though that’s as much as he seems to remember for now.
After remembering all of this, he goes to find where Oz is, knowing a bit of his past now and he’s relieved to see him again but it’s short lived as that’s when Oz’s father, Zai Bezarius shows up, saying he doesn’t care what happens to ‘that thing’ and goes off away, and the result is that Gil, enraged by seeing that man do this to Oz again, goes after the man, leaving Oz all alone once more.
Abilities: Gilbert is not only strong physically, but mentally as well which is proved in canon events by how much he endures. Especially since that he’s tamed a powerful chain and holds a contract with it, the symbol of this being through a small item called a ‘blood mirror‘ that he wears around his neck. His determination could be considered one of his greatest strengths as well.
He also has a lot of talent with guns and is an apt sharp shooter as he has a pistol with him at all times and is his number one weapon aside from the chain, Raven that is used for transportation, sealing and other things that are not entirely revealed in canon at this point.
Items brought along: The clothes on his back as well as his trusty pistol. Other than that, there‘s nothing else that really comes with him.
Stigma: The guilt that comes from him not being able to keep Oz from being pulled into the Abyss in the first place. He blames himself for not being able to stop what happened that day and even to the day, it bothers him even if he won’t tell anyone.
Samples
Regular Post: [Taken from my Scelti app. Hope that’s okay. If not, please let me know]
…Where is this? It can‘t be Sabrie..
[A distinct pause and a sigh follows]
What’s going on? Oz…? Is he… alone? I left him there..
If anyone can hear me on this, answer me. [a pause and a shuffle in the background]
I want to know where I am and who put me here…
….and I.. if anyone has a cigarette?
Log Post:
For him.
His head hurt and pounded endlessly.
A headache?
A small groan and the brunette slowly sat up, gold eyes trying to survey his surroundings which… looked nothing like Sabrie. He couldn’t even… how had he gotten here? Last he knew, he had been going after /that/ man and yet… he was here now. His mind blanked after he’d went after that man, the one who had hurt Oz for a second time and make him pay, but even then, could he have really done it? Just like how he couldn’t kill Alice, he… couldn’t have done it either.
Gil frowned and stared solemnly at his one gloved hand before he closed his eyes and shook his head, leaning back a bit onto the bench beneath him before he registered the feel of his pistol in his hand. So… he really had just been there. But now he’d been taken here and not even aware of how in Abyss he‘d ended up here to begin with. Nothing was making sense anymore and it only added to the way his head throbbed with memories and emotions that made his chest burn more than it had before.
Too much.
If only he could… find Oz again, he could make sure he was okay.
By now, he realized that… maybe he shouldn’t have left him. He… hated that man but he… what if Oz had needed him? He’d need to see his smile again, make sure his master would be okay. There was no way he wanted to hurt the blonde and now… he was so far away from him. So the only solution left?
Gil opened his eyes and looked around the new, unfamiliar surroundings before he closed his eyes to try and gather his thoughts together for just a second. If that bag… was all he had been left in this unfamiliar new place… maybe he could use it to find Oz. Or at least find someone who would be able to be of use and tell him what was going on or what this… place was at the very least.
So as one hand reached down to grab at the bag, fingers trembling a little while his other hand put his pistol away in it’s holster
Alias: Mika-chan
Contact Info: AIM: an inked heart
E-mail: bite.you.to.death@hotmail.com
Other characters: Nope~
IC Information
Character: Gilbert Nightray
Canon: Pandora Hearts
Point in canon: Mid-Chapter 40 [after he goes after Oz‘s father]
Age: 24
Personality: Gil is rather interesting character to know when you get to know him deep down.
If one had to look at him from a distance though, they would see that he is very complex and there’s much more to him than meets the eye at first glance. On the outside there's a hard, tough exterior that he’s built up around himself over the years because he wants to keep people out and close himself off from the outside world. He does this in order to not be vulnerable. Because vulnerability would mean it would be easier to be hurt - and possibly wounded - which is something he does not want happening while he is serving Oz as to make sure he’s going to stay safe.
Though several years ago he used to be a lot more innocent, smiled more and was so much more carefree than he was today. That was back when he'd been only a child, but only when he lost Oz to the Abyss, was when things changed and Gil found himself lost, tormented and rather guilty. To have lost both his precious master and closest friend after getting so close to him over the years. It broke him to an extent that he cannot forgive himself for not being able to protect him or stop him from disappearing down there. Throughout the manga and the length of the anime’s episodes, we see him go through a whole set of emotions even though he tries his damn best not to allow himself to display them. People seem to see Gil as a strong person. But there are even things that can break down anyone given the right circumstances. One of those said things is seeing his precious master, Oz in pain. It’s seen through the series just how bad Gil feels towards the boy (and Jack as well.) It’s so bad that it’s borderline unhealthy bordering on obsession and Break was the one who had told him this at one point before Oz had gotten out from the Abyss. That’s just the way he is and while he tries to hide that possessive side, he falls short on more than one occasion.
Another aspect of him is that he may say things like he 'doesn't care' about certain things, it’s the opposite as his mind always seems to be eating away at him with several different plaguing thoughts. The types that seem to eat away at him from the inside out. His brother, Vincent, knows this little fact all too well from their confrontations over the years and the time spent together. He also is not afraid to show animosity towards his brother and for several different reasons as more seen in more of the recent chapters in canon. Some remain a mystery while others? Not so much.
Gil is still very much like a puzzle and is hard to figure out even to this day but this’s the simplest explanation I can give.
History: At the very beginning, it starts off for Gil, a boy who showed up at the Bezarius manor with no memories at all, and was taken into the household. Here, he meets a boy named Oz and is told then that he will be his servant, and it’s not even long after this that the young Gil devotes his whole life to serving the blonde and this is enough for Gil for several years up to when Oz is 14 turning 15, and Gil himself is around 14 as well. Over the years he’s been bullied by the blonde over and over but he still wants to serve him, due to the fact that Oz was rather traumatized and broken by the fact his father said he never wanted to touch him and that he was filthy.
So this was what brought on his utter and devout loyalness to the young heir to the extent that he would be willing to give his own life if it meant keeping Oz safe. Time passed by and everything seemed to be going well until the day of Oz's fifteenth birthday. In the daytime, they fell into the bowels of an old ruin where a lone cross lay in front of them. Oz, being the curious one that he was, reached out a hand and took hold of a pocket watch that hung from the cross. It looked innocent enough, but when he opened the thing, it put him in a hypnotic trance. In his mindset, he was taken to a place where Alice had tried to strangle him, but in reality, he was standing at Gilbert's side, staring off into space.
Oz intended to have his uncle Oscar look at the watch, but he forgot to after the group returned to the Bezarius estate where they were having the Coming of Age ceremony at. Oz requested for Gil to be there at the ceremony, even though Gil decided against it immediately because he didn't figure he was deserving enough to be able to participate in such an event, but hesitantly agreed to anyways. Oz had to tend to a few matters with Ada [his little sister], which made the group go their own separate ways. Oz went with Ada and Gil found himself in the clutches of a woman with split personalities named Zwei. Zwei took possession of Gil using the power of her ‘chain’ (Doldam). Doldam's power is immobilizing and controlling people using invisible strings. Zwei used those very strings of her chain in order to take control of Gilbert. At the night of Oz's birthday at the Coming of Age Ceremony, Gil re-appeared but this time being possessed by the woman named Zwei. The ceremony soon turned into chaos after Oz had made his vow and touched the legendary old clock. As it gave off the loud, distinct chime, A group of cloaked people in red crashed the ceremony and threw Oz's world into a hellish world that he never even saw coming. Because Gil was being possessed, he ended up then stabbing Oz in the shoulder with a dagger and saying how ‘delicious‘ his blood was but at the same time, it really wasn‘t Gil saying this. He would have stabbed Oz again but a strange girl called ’B-rabbit’ appeared and created enough of a distraction and as the cloaked people fought the B-rabbit chain, Gil went over to the leader and asked why did Oz deserve this, and through a lightning flash, he recognizes the man. Oz thinks Gil’s in danger and raising a sword intended to hurt the enemy, ended up bringing a sword down upon Gilbert's chest with one clean swipe before he‘s able to stop himself. As Gil lay there feeling his life slip away, he could only listen helplessly as his best friend and Master was taken away into the Abyss. He soon passed out because of the toll his body had taken.
When he awoke after this, Oz was gone and he was hurt and saddened beyond all belief as he’d lost him and was completely at a loss at what to do. Around this time, he ran into a strange man who called himself Xerxes Break. The man presented the idea that he was a person who could be of great use to Gil, managed to convince the boy into being adopted by the Nightray family. Though naturally Gil was never one to trust odd strangers so quickly, when Break mentioned a way to help save Oz, he did what was asked of him obediently. Break had also told him that Vincent, who was supposedly Gil’s younger brother, had been also found by the Nightray family and taken in. It was rather shocking to hear this news and at the same time, it’d also made Gil quite afraid as well. He was never too good with meeting new people, and since he had no memory of who Vincent was, it made him incredibly afraid of him.
However, Gil agreed to contract and tame the Nightray chain which went by the name of Raven, but only as it was in exchange for Break agreeing to help save his master from the Abyss’ clutches. When he managed to not only make a contract but tame the chain, he took on the name ‘Raven’ and left his old name behind as it had way too many painful memories attached to it and it reminded him of Oz. If we look at the two of them, it’s shown that Raven’s a more stronger side of Gilbert and Gil doesn’t like to appear weak to anyone. It’s seen in how he continues to work for Break and to an extent, the organization called Pandora [which is essentially who Break works for]
A few years pass and soon it’s been ten years and they’ve been working on a chance to free Oz from the Abyss, but before it’s executed, Oz arrives through making a contract with the chain called B-Rabbit who more commonly calls herself Alice here. Raven was shocked here to find that Oz went to such lengths to free himself from the Abyss considering he, Break and a girl called Sharon Rainsworth had been about to do so anytime now. Irony hadn’t ever worked in his favor here, it seemed. It’s not long after this that Alice appears using Oz’s body but it doesn’t last long as Break forces her out with his staff. Along with this incident, a chain appears from the abyss and Gil is forced to unseal Alice’ power [which was sealed while Oz was unconscious] Once her power’s unleashed, Alice goes on to defeat the chain and afterwards, everyone got to see a peek from one of her memories from the pocket watch and only after this does Break ask the two to work for Pandora as well.
On their first mission, they find an illegal contractor and Gil tells Oz that the fate of all illegal contractors is that when their seal on their chest makes one whole revolution, the contractor and the chain are taken to the lowest levels of the abyss which is what will happen if Oz and Alice cannot find Alice’ memory fragments.
Second mission after this, the group head over to Oz’s old mansion and there, a member of the Baskervilles, their enemy are there and captures Gil in her Chain’s strings, making him be controlled by her and she makes him attack Oz to the point that he has Oz down with his gun pointing at the boy’s shoulder. Oz then moves the gun to under his chin proclaiming that he’d rather die first rather than see Gil betray him and that shakes him enough that Gil shakes himself from the control and shoots the enemy woman, making her withdraw for now. In this scene though, it’s seen that for the first time, Oz really finds out that Raven is indeed Gilbert, his servant from the past and that ten years has passed as well.
After this confrontation, Oz and Gilbert have a talk, and in the end of it, Oz allows Gilbert to stay being his servant and to not leave his side. Says to him that even though he’s changed, he’s yet still the same old Gilbert but with a stronger face and new skills and this only further serves to strengthen the bond between Master and Servant once again.
They then get a glimpse at Alice’ memories where it soon breaks off into a twisted world and they meet a strange little white-rabbit that ends up with Oz leaving a cryptic message to it and shooting it in the head with one of Gil’s guns that he’s been holding onto before the world crumbles and they get sent home.
We see them next at Gil’s house, where they have a brief talk with Break and Oz has an encounter with a girl who leaves them a strange letter that Gil seems to know who it’s from but says nothing of it as he really doesn’t want to worry people more than necessary and they head into the marketplace and Gil goes to have a talk with Oz when Alice demands meat and goes off on her own. After a bit of reluctance from Oz, Gil gives Oz his hat to watch over and says to wait while he goes after Alice and instead, as he buys food with her, they have a talk that leads into Gil getting a bit angry and tells Alice never to mention parents in front of Oz as it’s a rather tender subject with him and if he can avoid it being brought up, he will.
He explains to her that because of him, Oz had to find out that his father hated him. Hated him to the extent that he told him he was filthy and wouldn’t even touch him. Gil still blames himself even if Oz tells him otherwise and now that it’s said, even Alice knows of this as well. Unfortunately they soon run into a chain, forced to run because the person essential for unlocking Alice’s power isn’t here so she can fight.
Then Oz, a girl named Echo and the two of them run into each other along with the chain and his contractor in tow. The girl attacks the chain and is knocked away and the resulting attack breaks the bridge Oz’s on. After managing to unseal Alice’s powers, he falls unconscious and when he does wake, it’s to see a man with a gun pointed to Oz’s head and he draws his, only to hear Oz cry not to shoot, but then a bullet kills the man. One right to the head and it’s easily said and done. The shock of seeing this starts to send Alice’s power through Oz and hurts him and Gil rushes forwards to stop the flow of power while telling Oz it wasn’t him who killed that man and then another man comes from the alleyway with blond hair and mismatched eyes. He was the one who’d done it. Then after this, they go back to the mansion with the man so everyone can rest in warmth.
Gilbert then tells Oz that the man is his little brother and then explains to them his past of what happened while Oz was in the abyss, where he met Break, contracted with his chain Raven and what he’d done in order to try and get Oz back even if he got back on his own powers.
The next day is more humorous than the others.
Since Gil had lost his hat, he drags the two - Oz and Alice - out to find it and the end result is that they end up in an arm-wrestling match with the people who found it and claimed it was theirs. Using his devious skills, Oz wins the first match. As Gil goes against the woman whom is his opponent, Oz’s Uncle Oscar Bezarius shows up to help and sweet-talks Gil sneakily and wins over him easily to his dismay. Then Alice faces the toughest of the three men and only manages to win because Gil discreetly released her power enough to let her overpower the man.
After this win, Gil gets back his hat and him, Oz and Uncle Oscar have a small reunion of sorts after they get away from those people. A while later, they find out that Alice has disappeared and after a closer look around, they find out that Alice /and/ Break have been taken away somewhere and once they get back to see Sharon, she tells them that the two are in Cheshire Cat’s Dimension and Sharon uses her chain to open a portal to where the two are and Oz readily agrees. Of course Gil protests to Oz going there but Oz convinces him otherwise and the two go along into the dimension.
Once there, Sharon explains to them that they’re in Cheshire’s dimension and that she was separated from Break as it was, meaning something must have happened to him here. That’s about when Cheshire reveals himself and he is very much a cat-like chain, so of course even though he’s dangerous, Gil’s terrified of him for the mere reason he’s just a cat of sorts. His phobia of cats still hasn’t vanished even ten years later. This leads to Oz having to pull Gil away from Cheshire as he attacks so he isn’t hurt. Sharon then materializes her chain, Eques so they can get away from Cheshire for a little while at least.
As they run, they meet a twisted version of Alice whom Gil shoots down as it’s merely a fake. Cheshire then catches up and explains this place was created by Alice’s memories. Gil’s about to release Raven’s power so he can fight Raven but is distracted so Cheshire’s able to get one up on him and manages to slash him across the chest, where he falls over the railing
He wakes in an unfamiliar place though it looks like an old memory like they’d seen at least once before which is a scene from 100 years ago. And after lots and lots of endless searching, he runs into a man called Jack Bezarius, who, after a short bit, manages to bring Oz to where he is as well and saving him from the Cheshire Cat who’d been about to attack him. Oz then worries and frets over Gil, making him smile and tell the blonde that he’ll be perfectly alright, though after this, Jack goes to Oz and tells him he’s the one who can find Alice, and uses his power to send Oz off which makes Gil angry and demands he’s sent after Oz and points his gun at Jack. However, Jack merely blinks and takes Gil’s gun to his forehead with a smile very reminiscent of Oz’s and of course he doesn’t shoot, though Jack does mention something about Gil’s lack of memories and that’s when Gil sinks down, saying he doesn’t want to remember anymore, which Jack understands and seems to pull him close for a moment, saying it’s alright.
It’s only a short time after this that the world starts to crumble and shake, and Jack explains it must be that whatever Oz has seen has affected him and it’s him doing this as Gil can also feel his hand that seals Oz’s power start to ache and burn painfully, which is when Jack finally tells Gil to go protect him and stop him before he destroys this world and sends him off to where Oz is. Gil is then left to stumble through the crumbling world until he finds a dazed Oz wandering down one of the crumbling halls and when Gil tells him to stop Alice’s power before he destroys everything, Oz just starts to go on about destroying everything that makes Alice sad, everything that hurts her and is generally not himself, which scares Gil to the core. To snap Oz from that crazy daze, he hits Oz in the face and tells him to wake up and makes Oz remember what they came to this dimension to do and that seems to work.
A bit after, they see Alice at the top of a old-creepy staircase, and that’s when Oz goes up to catch Alice as she falls from the chains she’s held up with, Gil catching the both of them when they fall and that’s when the world starts crumbling again and Break shows up, fighting a more demonic-huge version of Cheshire Cat and it’s a short time after this that Sharon’s chain Eques takes Oz and Alice back and in the end, Gil has to use his own chain, Raven to send him and Break home before the world entirely crumbles to pieces.
Of course this drains him and he’s left weakened and tired from the use of power, and after a while he wakes up and knows he has to find Oz because he arrived here at Pandora’s Headquarters and comes in to find Oz now talking to Pandora, saying he is Jack Bezarius from a 100 years ago and announces to everyone that Glen Baskerville is not dead and will try to recreate the tragedy of Sabrie and it’s revealed too about Oz and how he came back from the Abyss on his own powers. Gil’s then remembering that painful day again and he feels sick again remembering it once more. Jack, within Oz’s body then tells Gil it’ll be okay and then tells everyone how that Oz is the key to stopping the Baskervilles and his words are so powerful of an Order that everyone bows down to him and Oz is given his body back once more.
Then there’s a skip up to the next time we see Gil and that’s when him, Oz, Alice and Uncle Oscar take a trip to see Ada [Oz’s little sis] at her school and do so undercover in school uniforms. A lot of shenanigans occur there, one of them with Oz and the Baskervilles and here we find out that the reason Gil likes his hat so much is because Ada gave it to him as a gift.
Following the school business, Break, Gil, Oz and Alice go to see one of the 4 dukes, by the name of Rufus Barma. They first meet a large, roly-poly, grinning man who goes by that name and reveals to the others that Gil has tried 8 times to quit smoking before the man barrels off and Oz and Alice follow after him. Then, Break asks Gil if he’s afraid of being left behind and that Oz will keep changing more and more, making him have a lot to think a bout. A short time later, they run into the real Rufus Barma who shows himself thanks to Break slicing through the fake, and after a short talk, Rufus slices open Break’s shirt and reveals a completed seal on his chest, and as he passes out, Rufus tells everyone of the past Break has not told everyone. How Break got that name ‘red eyed ghost’ and how he met the Will of Abyss and his old name had been ‘Kevin Regnard’ and how he’d managed to get some things changed in his past. Here, it’s also revealed here that Alice and the Will of Abyss are twins. In Jack’s notes, it was revealed how he knew of this fact but had been unable to do anything about that as well. It’s not long after this that they get enough information and head home where Gil and Oz grasp Break in a sort of hug and calls him a /friend/ which isn’t easy accepted [on the surface at least].
In the next chapter, we next see Gil when he goes to see his brother, Vincent about what happened to him all that time ago as he wants to know more about his memories. When Vincent tells Gil that anything he migth have done would have been done for Gil, he gets angry and pins Vincent to the wall angrily and tells him that if it had anything to do with Oz, he’d never forgive him, brother or not. Then after a small pause, Gil sinks to his knees with pain searing from his hand which signals that Oz’s seal has moved a little and that’s when Vincent sweeps in and asks him how long Oz has left and that makes Gil instantly stiffen as it’s not something he likes to talk about. That’s when Vincent starts to ask Gil that if he cares so much for Oz, then why doesn’t he kill Alice and save Oz before he’s dragged down to the abyss when his time completes and then Gil snaps back to Vincent that no, no he’s never thought of Alice as a friend despite what Vincent says to him otherwise and then Gil starts to think maybe he can kill her and that’s when memories start flashing through his mind and with these jumbled memories he starts to mumble that it doesn’t matter who it is, he’ll kill them if they try to take Oz away from him. He’ll kill every. One. Of. Them. That is what he screams out before stopping, realizing what he’d said and he feels sick because he’d said that amidst his memories and his head’s spinning now. Vincent comes to coddle him, pulling him close to him and says he’s the same as he was before. And tells him that no matter who he kills that he’s the only one by his side.
He later finds out on his trip back that Oz’s seal really did move and from then is rather quiet and distant from Oz, not speaking much to him whatsoever. He stays in his room until Oz slips a rather /suicidal/ note beneath his door, which makes him rush out to apologize and tell Oz that’s not the case and and finds Oz just sitting there with a smile and then announces so brightly that they’re heading to Sabrie.
So they head off there into the city, and Oz separates from Gil and Alice and that’s when Gil starts to remember what Vincent had gotten into his head and that and starts to think it’d be better to kill her and he hears nothing what she says as he gets almost overwhelmed by those memories of his, but as her ground cracks where Alice is, he doesn’t kill her. He rather protects her from getting hurt and then berates her for not seeing the crack in the ground and that’s when Alice thanks him for saving her. That startles him and he runs off and after his mind gets barraged with memories and yells for the memories to shut the hell up and that’s when Oz shows up and hits him, berating him for running off. Oz asks him what happened with Alice and can tell something’s wrong with him and tells Oz how he wants to regain his memories and that he fears that when he gets his memories back that he won’t be himself anymore.
Oz then tells him that it’s okay and he’d always be by his side no matter how much he changed and it’s then that Gil says he does not want to let his memories consume him.
Elliot then finds them and they’re taken to the Nightray orphanage for a short time before they head out into Sabrie once more after Eliot snaps at Gil and says he’s making him suffer. After this, they travel further and all of them get separated by Sabrie’s illusions. Gil sees a smaller version of himself and seems to follow before he feels pain, signalling that Oz’s released more of Alice’s powers wherever he is at this point in time.
However the feeling vanishes to show Oz had control of that power and he’s scared that Oz won’t need him and more memories bombard him once again and he starts to wonder if he’ll be free if he remembers as well as getting rid of all of his worries that he’s been feeling since that talk with Vincent. Sinking to his knees, in this memory, it’s Jack that finds him. Tells him then about the past and how when he was younger so long ago, that Gil died from protecting Jack so long ago and that Glen Baskerville killed him. Jack then comforts him and says he’s so happy that Gil called out his name and calls Gil his ‘cute little servant’.
Because of Jack, Gil’s memories start to come back into place. He remembers that him and Vincent spent years on the streets alone until Jack took them into his household. While there, a woman seems to do something to him and makes sure that he is to serve his master and kill off every enemy of Jack’s and after this, it’s only a short time after that he was killed by Glen. Though that’s as much as he seems to remember for now.
After remembering all of this, he goes to find where Oz is, knowing a bit of his past now and he’s relieved to see him again but it’s short lived as that’s when Oz’s father, Zai Bezarius shows up, saying he doesn’t care what happens to ‘that thing’ and goes off away, and the result is that Gil, enraged by seeing that man do this to Oz again, goes after the man, leaving Oz all alone once more.
Abilities: Gilbert is not only strong physically, but mentally as well which is proved in canon events by how much he endures. Especially since that he’s tamed a powerful chain and holds a contract with it, the symbol of this being through a small item called a ‘blood mirror‘ that he wears around his neck. His determination could be considered one of his greatest strengths as well.
He also has a lot of talent with guns and is an apt sharp shooter as he has a pistol with him at all times and is his number one weapon aside from the chain, Raven that is used for transportation, sealing and other things that are not entirely revealed in canon at this point.
Items brought along: The clothes on his back as well as his trusty pistol. Other than that, there‘s nothing else that really comes with him.
Stigma: The guilt that comes from him not being able to keep Oz from being pulled into the Abyss in the first place. He blames himself for not being able to stop what happened that day and even to the day, it bothers him even if he won’t tell anyone.
Samples
Regular Post: [Taken from my Scelti app. Hope that’s okay. If not, please let me know]
…Where is this? It can‘t be Sabrie..
[A distinct pause and a sigh follows]
What’s going on? Oz…? Is he… alone? I left him there..
If anyone can hear me on this, answer me. [a pause and a shuffle in the background]
I want to know where I am and who put me here…
….and I.. if anyone has a cigarette?
Log Post:
For him.
His head hurt and pounded endlessly.
A headache?
A small groan and the brunette slowly sat up, gold eyes trying to survey his surroundings which… looked nothing like Sabrie. He couldn’t even… how had he gotten here? Last he knew, he had been going after /that/ man and yet… he was here now. His mind blanked after he’d went after that man, the one who had hurt Oz for a second time and make him pay, but even then, could he have really done it? Just like how he couldn’t kill Alice, he… couldn’t have done it either.
Gil frowned and stared solemnly at his one gloved hand before he closed his eyes and shook his head, leaning back a bit onto the bench beneath him before he registered the feel of his pistol in his hand. So… he really had just been there. But now he’d been taken here and not even aware of how in Abyss he‘d ended up here to begin with. Nothing was making sense anymore and it only added to the way his head throbbed with memories and emotions that made his chest burn more than it had before.
Too much.
If only he could… find Oz again, he could make sure he was okay.
By now, he realized that… maybe he shouldn’t have left him. He… hated that man but he… what if Oz had needed him? He’d need to see his smile again, make sure his master would be okay. There was no way he wanted to hurt the blonde and now… he was so far away from him. So the only solution left?
Gil opened his eyes and looked around the new, unfamiliar surroundings before he closed his eyes to try and gather his thoughts together for just a second. If that bag… was all he had been left in this unfamiliar new place… maybe he could use it to find Oz. Or at least find someone who would be able to be of use and tell him what was going on or what this… place was at the very least.
So as one hand reached down to grab at the bag, fingers trembling a little while his other hand put his pistol away in it’s holster