Whatever
So i havnt written in awhile. Valentines was actually pretty fucking good. i went out to lunch with a friend, and while we were at the mall, some guy asked me if i was intrested in modeling etc. and this has happened to me before and been a complete joke but the more i looked into this the more i like it. only problem. its in newyork and the first time i'd have to pay for the two day trip to newyork. but after that if the company liked me they would pay for me to come to them. idk. i want to really bad actually but meh. my mom will prolly take all the fun outta it. like always. then after chris got off work at like 11PM he came over and brought me purty pink flowers and then we wet to sharis then his place till around 1AM then my place then he left aorund 4 AM or so..but yeah. me and him arnt technically togther. we are not boyfriend and girlfriend. we're dating suposely tho. i think hes just using me for sex...hmmm.. oh well. whatever. and i talk to barry everynow and then, he sounds so depressed and he said the only think keeping him alive and willing to come home for leave is me i was like awe how sweet. but he was telling me about he was so bored he tried drowning himself in his friends sink. its like...lol ok..freak. but he was dead serious about it. idk. i just want him home for good. i dont know what im going to do when he goes oversea's which he will...his time will come. speaking of which my sisters going back soon to...omg i'd die if they went at thesame time. ugh. i wish chris wasnt so intimidating and i couldt talk to him cuz hes the only person i ever see or talk to anymore. but idk. i just dont think he'd be understanding of my problems. oh well. i'll live. i have a shit load of homeowrk i need to do. but i dont wanna. so hopeully i just wont go to school tomrorow. i have a dentist apt. at 9:30AM to get my teeth cleaned. so that'll last till alittle after 10Am then maybe i'll go out ot breakfast that'll take awhile then my 1/2 block class will be done? and i'll have lunch and not go to school then i'll just go to pychology and science?!? or just not go to school at all..hmm...whats one more day of skipping? lol