What has 9 arms and sucks?
I feel really alone. I don't know how to meet new people, and the ones I know have their own lives. Wish I knew where the positivity and motivation I had a few weeks ago went, because this sitting around depressed thing really isn't any fun. No goals, no motivation, no ideas. The only image I seem to project these days is sad, so I guess I can't fault people for not wanting to do anything. I mean, look at everything I've posted, it's fucking depressing. I guess I just wish I felt more like people cared. Or that I cared more about myself. Unfair to expect others to when I don't really try to make much effort for myself. I just have such a hard time meeting new people, and I'm picky. Plus, I've managed to alienate a lot of people through years of not really wanting to do that much. Or maybe I'm just not that likable. I dunno. I don't want anyone to think I'm accusing them of anything, this is just how I think when I get down. I need to be more content with myself, and with being alone. Neither are things I've ever had much success with. My confidence and self-esteem are in the toilet too (and hey, add on the wonderful cynicism that keeps me from fully believing others when they try to convince me I'm not a completely useless waste of flesh and that they do in fact, actually like me). All I can seem to do is wallow, bitch, and post stuff like this hoping someone will have some advice or help, but knowing I probably wouldn't take it if it were offered.
So how's your day going?
So how's your day going?