oh shit. I'm graduating!
(This journal entry is of no real importance other than me venting, if you wish to read do so, if not, move on.)
HOLY shit! It really hit me today, I'm graduating highscool. I just had my last real school day. Tomorrow is a half day for seniors and the week after is exams. I'm still frantic about that becuase my teacher hasn't updated her Edline so i don't now if i'm exempt from an exam or not, especially since I have one lined up right after it.
It hit me, hard. Hell, I became so nostolgic that I had to take a 3 to 4 hour nap. I keep looking off into space or the sky just thinking about how I'll probably never seen my class again. Not because no one tries to keep in touch with me, it's just that even though I have gotten to know my class mates, (some I've known since pre-k infact) it's just that I'm that anti-social I noticed. I share a bond with my class but it's not as strong as I think it is suppose to be. It's my own fault but my pont remains. I think I'm starting to have regrets. It's so daunting to know that my life is just starting even though my previous life is coming to an end. I'm not very sure of myself.
I have to stand on my own, and while i have an above average GPA... I have a bad feeling I'm gonna fall flat on my ass and fail my classes. College is a completely different world from highschool where I have almost had everything spoon fed to me. I'm feeling so depressed when I should be excited about leaving highschool. Admittedly, I AM excited about leaving, it's just...as I said before, I'm having regrets about how I didn't make as much of a social effort as I think I should have.
College is a new world, ergo, a new opportunity. To find myself and hopefully that self will be more social and fulfilling than the self before.
Lord, I look back at the letter i wrote myself as a freshman... I was so lonely. I must have been. I was so SHALLOW! I could kick myself. I guess that's all. Sorry for wasting cyber space but this had to go somewhere and pen and paper takes to long for me. By the time the sentece is written down I have forgotten the next one.
What a day. What a future.
HOLY shit! It really hit me today, I'm graduating highscool. I just had my last real school day. Tomorrow is a half day for seniors and the week after is exams. I'm still frantic about that becuase my teacher hasn't updated her Edline so i don't now if i'm exempt from an exam or not, especially since I have one lined up right after it.
It hit me, hard. Hell, I became so nostolgic that I had to take a 3 to 4 hour nap. I keep looking off into space or the sky just thinking about how I'll probably never seen my class again. Not because no one tries to keep in touch with me, it's just that even though I have gotten to know my class mates, (some I've known since pre-k infact) it's just that I'm that anti-social I noticed. I share a bond with my class but it's not as strong as I think it is suppose to be. It's my own fault but my pont remains. I think I'm starting to have regrets. It's so daunting to know that my life is just starting even though my previous life is coming to an end. I'm not very sure of myself.
I have to stand on my own, and while i have an above average GPA... I have a bad feeling I'm gonna fall flat on my ass and fail my classes. College is a completely different world from highschool where I have almost had everything spoon fed to me. I'm feeling so depressed when I should be excited about leaving highschool. Admittedly, I AM excited about leaving, it's just...as I said before, I'm having regrets about how I didn't make as much of a social effort as I think I should have.
College is a new world, ergo, a new opportunity. To find myself and hopefully that self will be more social and fulfilling than the self before.
Lord, I look back at the letter i wrote myself as a freshman... I was so lonely. I must have been. I was so SHALLOW! I could kick myself. I guess that's all. Sorry for wasting cyber space but this had to go somewhere and pen and paper takes to long for me. By the time the sentece is written down I have forgotten the next one.
What a day. What a future.