One Final Time.

[gundam083]

Feeling the stab of something missing,
Longing to see the friends
I once called my family.
This feeling is one that,
I had vowed would never bother me.

The need to be hugged by those
that I thought once cared for me.
The desire to be part of something more
then a simple phone call,
and yet I have known for sometime
that I simply have been forgotten.

As the hands of the clock turn,
and minutes become hours,
my hours into days,
the pain always seems to stay,
never fading away.

With nothing left to give,
nothing left to look forward too
and the simplicity of being part of the group,
I say fuck the world and let it burn,
you had your chance,
now you can wait your turn.

I tried so hard to keep you in mind,
to bring you along to share my time,
and yet I am still the one that remains
utterly forgotten.

Your friendship nothing but a curtain,
You've pulled about my eyes and kept me blind
to the field you were driving me out to,
to be lost and forgotten.

With the ache in my chest for those
whom have sought not to forget,
Now I really do need to leave you behind.
You left me in this field to wander,
blind and confused no longer able to call for help.
With this blindfold removed,
Looking about and knowing you were never really there,
all I can do is keep moving forward.

So to this I say good bye,
Your nothing but a painful memory,
and thus is all you shall remain.
Good night and good bye,
for all the good it will do,
I had enjoyed my time with you,
but to many times have you chosen to leave me behind
and no longer will I allow myself the pleasure
of being in pain because of you.