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I really don't have to explain anything to any person.
I don't want to tell you why I ignored your calls last night, who I was with, or what I was doing.
I'm happy again.
My temporary depression is gone.
Life is looking good.
Maybe I am ready for a relationship...
Well, I know I am.
But my life has been crazy lately.. Leaving me with little time for me let alone a man.
yes, I enjoy laying next to you.. And I enjoy your kisses..
But its all so pretend.
When I wake up in the morning... its back to reality.
I just don't want a boyfriend.
I don't care anymore..I don't care who thinks I'm being promiscuous.
I don't care about what you "want" out of me..
Because I'm tired of making everyone else priority over myself.
I'm not afraid to let my guard down.
I'm moving on with my life.
I apologize if you happen to be something I left behind.
These "friends"..these people who would jump on the oppurtunity to bring me down..to make me hate myself..to make me feel worthless.
I'm finally able to let you go.
I'm able to let go of the boy who I thought would keep my heart.
But when the bad outweighs the good..its time to move on.
It hurts a little less each day.
I'm not regretful of anything in my life anymore.
I've learned so much about myself and how to deal with life after everything happened.
I'm 18...
And its so weird to think that.. I've only lived 18 years of my life.
What am I doing wasting time wishing I could turn it back?
I don't wish he could be erased from my mind..
I don't wish I would have walked away that day..
Because without that, I wouldn't have grown into who I am now.
I've sauid this a million times,
But I have so much faith in him.
I know hell grow up eventually.. And I know hell make his life amazing..
I'm just doing it all a little before him.
I won't stop loving anthony... I can't.
He was there through so much..he was my main support for almost 2 years.
But I've grown up..and he's no longer my everything.
It feels good to be able to stand on my own two feet.
I don't want to tell you why I ignored your calls last night, who I was with, or what I was doing.
I'm happy again.
My temporary depression is gone.
Life is looking good.
Maybe I am ready for a relationship...
Well, I know I am.
But my life has been crazy lately.. Leaving me with little time for me let alone a man.
yes, I enjoy laying next to you.. And I enjoy your kisses..
But its all so pretend.
When I wake up in the morning... its back to reality.
I just don't want a boyfriend.
I don't care anymore..I don't care who thinks I'm being promiscuous.
I don't care about what you "want" out of me..
Because I'm tired of making everyone else priority over myself.
I'm not afraid to let my guard down.
I'm moving on with my life.
I apologize if you happen to be something I left behind.
These "friends"..these people who would jump on the oppurtunity to bring me down..to make me hate myself..to make me feel worthless.
I'm finally able to let you go.
I'm able to let go of the boy who I thought would keep my heart.
But when the bad outweighs the good..its time to move on.
It hurts a little less each day.
I'm not regretful of anything in my life anymore.
I've learned so much about myself and how to deal with life after everything happened.
I'm 18...
And its so weird to think that.. I've only lived 18 years of my life.
What am I doing wasting time wishing I could turn it back?
I don't wish he could be erased from my mind..
I don't wish I would have walked away that day..
Because without that, I wouldn't have grown into who I am now.
I've sauid this a million times,
But I have so much faith in him.
I know hell grow up eventually.. And I know hell make his life amazing..
I'm just doing it all a little before him.
I won't stop loving anthony... I can't.
He was there through so much..he was my main support for almost 2 years.
But I've grown up..and he's no longer my everything.
It feels good to be able to stand on my own two feet.