well, i did it. sorta.
i actually feel like going to sleep right now, but i thought i might interest you in whats driving me nuts at this moment.
i kinda asked colin out sorta. a couple weeks ago he was talking about a movie that came out last friday. so, i, ever so casually, asked him if he saw the movie yet (actually, i asked him what he did the day it came out and he didnt mention that so i guessed he didnt see it) then i, well, i cant remember what happened anymore, but how it turned out is that we're gona see that movie this coming friday.
i was really proud of myself until my mom found out (i somehow told her. she knows everything about this. i resent the fact that she got involved. it only brings me pain.) she told he that since i asked him out as a friend, he'll never be able to ask me out romantically or something. i took away his macho power.
so now im freaked out that i totally ruined it for myself. that now we can only be friends and nothing more. if thats the case, i guess it wouldnt be that bad, except that i'd always be wishing that it would change when it cant. did i really screw myself over by making the first move? im sorry, but lately i have realized how impatient i am. i've been trying really hard, but i've waited as long as could. i just hope i didnt mess it up.
oh, and i got his number. not that i know what to do with it now, but i have it. just in case...i dono...something happend...or something.
i kinda asked colin out sorta. a couple weeks ago he was talking about a movie that came out last friday. so, i, ever so casually, asked him if he saw the movie yet (actually, i asked him what he did the day it came out and he didnt mention that so i guessed he didnt see it) then i, well, i cant remember what happened anymore, but how it turned out is that we're gona see that movie this coming friday.
i was really proud of myself until my mom found out (i somehow told her. she knows everything about this. i resent the fact that she got involved. it only brings me pain.) she told he that since i asked him out as a friend, he'll never be able to ask me out romantically or something. i took away his macho power.
so now im freaked out that i totally ruined it for myself. that now we can only be friends and nothing more. if thats the case, i guess it wouldnt be that bad, except that i'd always be wishing that it would change when it cant. did i really screw myself over by making the first move? im sorry, but lately i have realized how impatient i am. i've been trying really hard, but i've waited as long as could. i just hope i didnt mess it up.
oh, and i got his number. not that i know what to do with it now, but i have it. just in case...i dono...something happend...or something.