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First- Leave me all of your phone numbers, because I got a new phone and I didn't write down anyone's numbers.
*ahem*
Anyway, Steve and I went to Newark to go to a Salvation Army...
(Yes, Newark...that scary place that you've only seen from the comfort of the train or plane windows... with depressed-looking dogs wandering the streets, and open-air crack dealings...the stuff dreams are made of...)
It was ok. The womens' clothes were kinda 'bleh', nothing really interesting. We decided to hit up the 'Toys 'R Us'/ Ikea complex on the way back, and Steve got lost. We got caught in this crazy loop of turnkpike/Ironbound district.
Even though we were listening to happy rockabilly music, Steve still got all angry and started to yell at me that I'm never happy and never entertained and nothing is ever good enough for me and he's trying the best he can and I'm too demanding and whiny and and and I just drive him insane (!!!!!) He yelled at me like a crazy maniac! Just because I'm annoying ! All I did was tell him he took the wrong road ! (And I said I didn't wanna go to the mall, and I started to fuss ...)
"Noooo, I wanted to go to Ikeeeaaaaa...Not the maaaaaaaaaaaalllllll..."
I guess that last one just pushed him over the edge. Even so, I think he hates me. :( (He says that he doesn't hate me, but how could someone who loves me yell at me ? ;_; I'm the best, sweetest, nicest person ever. It's not like I deserve to be yelled at all the time. It hurt my heart, like, so much.)
We went to the Ikea's, and looked at all of the furniture...We wanna get one of those cute 70's-ish beds that are like..on the ground... for this summer...We also talked about how we're gonna design our house someday when we have one. I don't know why he'd wanna live in a house with me since I'm so irritating, though.
We went to Dunkin Donuts, and he tried to tell them to give me ONE donut hole ! (He was trying to be mean, I think.) Luckily, it didn't work, they had to give me at least 3, and they actually gave me 5. HAHA, Steve! I win and you lose, again ! Hah!
I have also succeeded in getting plenty of candid photos of Steve with my camera phone...Since he seems agitated by it, I put one of them on the phone's desktop and the other one is a 'screen saver'. I also took a video of him that he didn't know I was taking ! :D I wish someone I knew had a 'video-enabled' phone so that I could send these works of filmographic genius to someone else. ;_;
...In other news, Penny never answers my texts, and Khristina didn't even ask me to go to the show tonight because I'm not as cool as the Lob girl. I guess no one likes me. I should go and cry somewhere with that scary emo kid from my Japanese class. I know how he feels, I think. I mean, what the fuck ? Do I have to get an abortion or something to get people to care about me !? It's like I don't exist anymore, and all I have is my music and my tofurkey and vegan water.
My life
is so
full of pain
depression
fills my days
if i cut myself
would i bleed?
But...I guess I'm gonna go back to my dorm room...
Bye bye, Live Journal.
*ahem*
Anyway, Steve and I went to Newark to go to a Salvation Army...
(Yes, Newark...that scary place that you've only seen from the comfort of the train or plane windows... with depressed-looking dogs wandering the streets, and open-air crack dealings...the stuff dreams are made of...)
It was ok. The womens' clothes were kinda 'bleh', nothing really interesting. We decided to hit up the 'Toys 'R Us'/ Ikea complex on the way back, and Steve got lost. We got caught in this crazy loop of turnkpike/Ironbound district.
Even though we were listening to happy rockabilly music, Steve still got all angry and started to yell at me that I'm never happy and never entertained and nothing is ever good enough for me and he's trying the best he can and I'm too demanding and whiny and and and I just drive him insane (!!!!!) He yelled at me like a crazy maniac! Just because I'm annoying ! All I did was tell him he took the wrong road ! (And I said I didn't wanna go to the mall, and I started to fuss ...)
"Noooo, I wanted to go to Ikeeeaaaaa...Not the maaaaaaaaaaaalllllll..."
I guess that last one just pushed him over the edge. Even so, I think he hates me. :( (He says that he doesn't hate me, but how could someone who loves me yell at me ? ;_; I'm the best, sweetest, nicest person ever. It's not like I deserve to be yelled at all the time. It hurt my heart, like, so much.)
We went to the Ikea's, and looked at all of the furniture...We wanna get one of those cute 70's-ish beds that are like..on the ground... for this summer...We also talked about how we're gonna design our house someday when we have one. I don't know why he'd wanna live in a house with me since I'm so irritating, though.
We went to Dunkin Donuts, and he tried to tell them to give me ONE donut hole ! (He was trying to be mean, I think.) Luckily, it didn't work, they had to give me at least 3, and they actually gave me 5. HAHA, Steve! I win and you lose, again ! Hah!
I have also succeeded in getting plenty of candid photos of Steve with my camera phone...Since he seems agitated by it, I put one of them on the phone's desktop and the other one is a 'screen saver'. I also took a video of him that he didn't know I was taking ! :D I wish someone I knew had a 'video-enabled' phone so that I could send these works of filmographic genius to someone else. ;_;
...In other news, Penny never answers my texts, and Khristina didn't even ask me to go to the show tonight because I'm not as cool as the Lob girl. I guess no one likes me. I should go and cry somewhere with that scary emo kid from my Japanese class. I know how he feels, I think. I mean, what the fuck ? Do I have to get an abortion or something to get people to care about me !? It's like I don't exist anymore, and all I have is my music and my tofurkey and vegan water.
My life
is so
full of pain
depression
fills my days
if i cut myself
would i bleed?
But...I guess I'm gonna go back to my dorm room...
Bye bye, Live Journal.