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i utterly loath greg.
what an ass.
he cant get a girl that he likes. because he has a fucked up face. and he went on n on complaining and talking with Jeramie, telling him that he should date other girls. Why be tied down to one girl?
and now Jeramie is breaking my heart.
He's tearing me apart.
It Hurts.
I hate it.
It's not fair.
At the begining i told him that i was scared that he would leave me to be with other girls, and he said no, never, it wouldnt happen like that. and here we are...almost 5 months later, a week from our 5 month anniversary. and he's leaving me.
last night was horrific. i knew something was wrong. Jeramie had just got off the phone with greg, and he was acting odd. so i asked what was wrong. and he came up with " i want to date other girls"
i told him that i love him, but i wont wait around for him. i couldnt, it would hurt to much. my future with jeramie was what made me keep going, to fight for what i want, to make sure we had a future. he is taking that away. i cried and cried last night, and so did Jer. i told him that i would do anything for him, he is my magick. but the one thing i cant do is wait. im scared that if we break up i will spiral back down, i can already tell you that im craving the euphoria of marijuanna, i want to lay in bed. why should i get up and go to school and graduate and make a life for myself if its not the life i want and isnt going to mak me happy? all i want is him...
no one was there last night.
i called many.
none returned.
i texted.
i was alone.
all fucking alone.
jeramie, i fucking love you. and if that isnt enough, i dont know what is. you say its not me..then what is it?
what an ass.
he cant get a girl that he likes. because he has a fucked up face. and he went on n on complaining and talking with Jeramie, telling him that he should date other girls. Why be tied down to one girl?
and now Jeramie is breaking my heart.
He's tearing me apart.
It Hurts.
I hate it.
It's not fair.
At the begining i told him that i was scared that he would leave me to be with other girls, and he said no, never, it wouldnt happen like that. and here we are...almost 5 months later, a week from our 5 month anniversary. and he's leaving me.
last night was horrific. i knew something was wrong. Jeramie had just got off the phone with greg, and he was acting odd. so i asked what was wrong. and he came up with " i want to date other girls"
i told him that i love him, but i wont wait around for him. i couldnt, it would hurt to much. my future with jeramie was what made me keep going, to fight for what i want, to make sure we had a future. he is taking that away. i cried and cried last night, and so did Jer. i told him that i would do anything for him, he is my magick. but the one thing i cant do is wait. im scared that if we break up i will spiral back down, i can already tell you that im craving the euphoria of marijuanna, i want to lay in bed. why should i get up and go to school and graduate and make a life for myself if its not the life i want and isnt going to mak me happy? all i want is him...
no one was there last night.
i called many.
none returned.
i texted.
i was alone.
all fucking alone.
jeramie, i fucking love you. and if that isnt enough, i dont know what is. you say its not me..then what is it?