The downsides of being a woman..
So i let pms get the best of me... i really got emotional and it was so stupid. i just worry soo much... its hard to have a relationship with no trust... he leaves and i freak out, i dont want to be around him ALL the time you know? space is good, but for some reason my mentality is if hes not around hes doing something bad... and i know the some reason, you know? he made me this way with all the lies and deception. and it goes through my head that i need to be with him every second so that he wont even have the chance to do something bad... but i cant its not humanly possible. i just need to try to trust him but he needs to help, he disappears for hours and days and it freaks me out. thats not wrong to be angry about that its bullshit he knows how i feel. i need to let him make the decisions and if he makes bad decisions then so be it. i cant change him he has to change himself and i need to give myself the strength to say fuck it if he does do any of those bad things. ill survive i know i will and i know im a good person.
dont get wrong, he's a much better person than he used to be its just the fact that i dont trust him and i freak out when he hangs out with certain people and doesnt call me. hes gone for whole days with out calling me. i am happy with him, hes a lot nicer to me and is clean and a totally different person. i seriously hope that we pull through this, it is new us being back together and we have to adjust to so many things. i hope im not wrong, i threw away alot to give me and shane one more chance. its amazing.
jeeze that feels good to vent.
i totally support gay rights woo whatever. i just really dont want to see it ya dig? gross.
im excited for tonight, shane got a job finally and hes taking me out to dinner and perhaps a movie. whew these mood swings.
dont get wrong, he's a much better person than he used to be its just the fact that i dont trust him and i freak out when he hangs out with certain people and doesnt call me. hes gone for whole days with out calling me. i am happy with him, hes a lot nicer to me and is clean and a totally different person. i seriously hope that we pull through this, it is new us being back together and we have to adjust to so many things. i hope im not wrong, i threw away alot to give me and shane one more chance. its amazing.
jeeze that feels good to vent.
i totally support gay rights woo whatever. i just really dont want to see it ya dig? gross.
im excited for tonight, shane got a job finally and hes taking me out to dinner and perhaps a movie. whew these mood swings.