I should not be ashamed, because I have everything to lose yet I have nothing to gain...

[gumdropprincess]

Ahh guilt...a wonderous emotion. Everytime I hang out with this group (however few of us there are) I am reminded of how things have changed, mostly on account of me. She used to be the fun one who organized things and made everything party-party...now its impossible for us to all hang out together. And I hate it, I hate that I took that away from

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[absinthequeen]

First off, it was my pleasure to drive you home. It seems like it's one of the few times we can get together to talk, JUST US.

Second of all, I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOO SORRY!! I really felt like an idiot after I dropped you off last night! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE don't feel guilty about ANY of that! Again, you out of everyone in the situation are the innocent one! Ya know, she could hang out with you guys if she wasn't going to be upset, but ya know, isn't it at least better that she's not with you causing problems??? Wow, i feel terrible having said those things last night! I was tired and not really thinking. Ashley has no censorship with no sleep. Ya know what though, yes the group has changed, but not necessarily in a bad way. With her around it wasn't REALLY hanging out with friends. To me it was just partying with aquaintances. Now, we're allowing ourselves to get closer. That's pretty cool. And as far as the whole trust thing goes... I THINK YOU SHOULD TRUST HIM. He seems like he genuinely cares about u and would never do anything to purposely hurt hurt you. Forget what you've heard. At this point, you know him better than they do and he seems like he is willing to even change all his faults to make your relationship different than his others. That says a lot. I apologize for making you worry over things that should have been forgotten a while ago. That was rude and insensitive of me. In all honesty I've learned to trust you so quickly that I feel so comfortable just saying what's on my mind. I'm sorry again for upsetting you! Please forgive me for being inconsiderate.

So okay, with that said, get some sleep!!! You are going to have the best birthday bash ever tomorrow!!!!!!!! Happy early 20th birthday! I'm so glad that I met you!! Cheers!

[absinthequeen]

wow......can i add an extra "ya know".....and maybe not so mant typos???