The Thoughts.....
So I thought I would make a post because I havent in a while and I am bored and I just feel like venting a whole bunch of stuff out of my system right now. This picture was taken last night right before my Bubbie and Zaide's 50th Wedding Anniversary dinner. I was wearing a skirt last night (as some of you know) and I actually felt like a girl...it was a nice change. So the dinner last night was so much fun, it made me realize how much I love spending time with the entire crew because it now rarely happens cause the boys are away for schoool and Im usually out and stuff. So lots of jokes were shared and many laughs and I saw my Bubbie and Zaide share a kiss which I had never seen before and I always used to ask my mom why they never showed affection to eachother...well now we have it on film :) Dinner was very yummy, I had crab legs and rice :) (one of my favourites). After dinner my brother and cousin and I were leaving the resteraunt and a guy, who was out smoking with a bunch of other guys, whistled at me :) It made me feel soooooo special :) My brother and cousin were ready to punch the guy out but thats ok :) so that was last night.
My time has mainly been occupied with the grade 12 show at school which everyone better be coming to see because it is incredible. It opens on June 6th at Theatre 219, be there or get wet :) So yeah thats why most people havent seen me in a while cause we have been in an intensive rehearsal schedule and such.
School is almost done and this year I am happy for it to end. I need my summer vacation cause I have had enough stress this year to last me a life time. Plus I just love the summer cause it means getting a tan (as you can see in the picture I am a pasty ghost).
My mind has been filled with many random thoughts lately....i've been planning on cleaning out my closet but everytime I think about doing so I get anxiety attacks because of all the memories I'm afraid are going to be brought back to me. Between people that have passed, friendships that have died and hard times in my life Im just not excited for it but I know it MUST get done. I also hate the fact that so many of my friends at school and out of school are leaving this year for University and I wont be able to see most of them for a while. It scares me, I hate when people have to leave. And there is so much unfinished business with some of them and like it just sucks and thats been bothering me for a while as well. I dont know why im typing this for all to see but I guess i just need to get it out. These are among other thoughts that I will not be sharing on livejournal due to the fact that they are my secrets and feelings and mine alone.
So I conclude with a congrats to anyone that actually sat there and just read this entire shpeel on my life cause it must've taken a lot of strength to read it all cause I am a rambler. Well Toodles pip